✖_мч swеет мемояч_✖

this is the only happiness

2010-03-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

this is what 2nd surprise that i made for him when i wanted to apologise to him.

it is the words of SORRY.

i still remember that what his response to me when he saw this~

he was touched by it but he keep deny that.

his touching face and emotion has betrayed what his deny.

i dont know that he still remember this chocolate or not.

this is the chocolate that he gave me when he visited to my house on the CNY

he gave it to my mummy as the present of CNY. xD

my mummy took it to me just now.

and said, [bernice lau, your ryan gave you these when CNY. isnt you dont want to eat those sweet chocolate and want to wait it moldy in the refrigerator? or you want me help you and eat it finish? ]

T.T NO LA MUM. YOU CANT EAT IT, JUST ME CAN EAT. IT IS FOR ME XD

I WILL EAT IT ONCE ON EACH DAY.

BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL HAPPINESS WHEN I AM EATING~

oh my god. i cant expect that my mummy will say said those to me.

i knew that she cares my boyfriend.

she knows that he treats me good and he loves me.

1st time she tease me like this. and 1st time she and i can chat in a harmony environment.

she and i are chatting now. she is beside me and watching me online although she dont know what i write. I love this feeling, relax feeling and without generation gap~ actually she not old xD.

and she told me, PEOPLE WHO SCOLD YOU ARE THE PEOPLE WHO CARE YOU THE MOST.

what she told me is same as Ryan said before.

i should take away my naive mind and accept all the logical scolding from my lover, family and friends.

because you all care about me, worry me will do mistake and just wanted me to be better. i promised you all, i will trying to accept all the scolding with smile but not with tears xD

i felt happiness because we can hold this love tightly.

my lover and my family love me more than they can do.

i hope that our love wont be spoiled again.

our love should be sweeter, older and forever~

baby, i know that you work hard and felt stress of your job.

i cant help and do anythings for you when you felt stressful.

but i will always be there for you when you need me.

i can give you all my love and caring.

please promised me that dont work too hard and make yourself too stress..

because life is belongs to us. it just once time for everyone. we should stay relax and happy in our life.

DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY, I LOVE YOU~

and please don ask me why i can so love you, it is cant describe by words.

just because of 1 sentence=> THE POWER OF LOVE.

2010-03-14T09:24:00.000-07:00

I want to tell all of you at here.

that was i and him didnt break up at the last~

maybe he too touched by the video that i did it by myself~xD

sure not la. it was because HE LOVE ME, AND I LOVE HIM.

let me show the video~

you all can give some comment on it. just allow good comment on it. =)

today went to watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND with my boyfriend.

but Bernice in the wonderland at the last xD

erm, what comment should i gave on this movie?

1 words, it made me faint but not because of the movie's story.

it was because of the 3D spectacles.

dont know what the reason o. when i wore it and watched movie, i felt faint and blurr~

i knew that i old already so cant enjoy those fashionable movie -.-

i guess nothing can let me write on today le.

i gonna to sleep le. good nitez

at the last, wanna tell my boyfriend something at here.

baby, i can felt your love on those days after we argued.

you became more caring than before.

you became more gentle than before.

i love those thing which you gave me.

love your everything~

2010-03-09T03:23:00.000-08:00

today, we argue again.

just because of some minor problem.

i apologised to him. hope he can forgive me.

noon, i slept le a whole day.

i am sick. i am tired. i am headache.

but my hand still holding my handphone when i was sleeping.

do you know why i did that?

because i worried the one who i love will contact and i scare to lost contact with him.

at the last, i cant do that.

when i woke up from nap, the phone has dropped on the floor.

sigh.

when i on my phone, i hope that i can see his msg .

but it didnt got any msg from him.

its ok for me. because he still mad. i didnt cried because i am TOUGH.

why you never contact me?

do you miss me?

do you know i am worrying you?

a note that posted in my handphone's wallpaper on yesterday that accompany me a whole day.

[REMIND MY BABY TO GET A STAPLER]

and our photo in the screen saver of my phone.

sigh~

no matter how, i wait your text! i wait your phone!

from the moment, i saw you online.

at the last, the tears has dropped.

3 more days~

2010-03-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

woohoo.

three more days.

it will be our 8th month aniversary.

yesterday we watched solomon kane.

it was awesome.

but i no fate to watch my S.H.E's concert.

wuwu.. but my baby sum has watched it with her boyfriend..

and she said it was great performance..

when i can watch it with my baby too??

when the day i become rich women, then i treat all my friends watch the concert with me xD.

sorry for my day dreaming.

baby, my heart belongs to you since 10/7/2009.

nothing gonna change my love for you~

mwahx.. wo ai ni.

2010-03-04T00:28:00.000-08:00

this is my new cloth on CNY.

it looks sexy but not very suit for me.

my baby said i become lala mui when i wore it.

oh my god.

but i still will wear it because i feel fresh and comfortable when wearing singlet. xD

nothing special happened on recently ne~

cham. pity.

my life is bored. it just like a recycle bin, repeat and repeat the same thing which i need to do on everyday.

i guess i should stop because i need to take a nap.

bye~ miss you my baby dear ryan.

steamboat.

2010-03-01T04:03:00.000-08:00

finally, the steamboat party has gone.

most of my babes has come.

but, no any related picture to upload because blackout on that night.

we all failed to capture any picture of this steamboat party because of dark environment.

sigh!

but, those memory was deep into my heart.

it was the 1st time that i organize the steamboat party.

although it was messy, but it got many memorable memory of it.

those memorable memory just for us who got attend it. happy.

it was unforgettable too =]

baby, my love for you is stubborn.

nothing and nobody can change it include you, i just know that i love you very much.

fine!

2010-02-25T06:16:00.001-08:00

my new photo on today.

sexy? xD

all has fine!

their love story still will be continued.

plus, their love story will more wonderful than before.

congratulation to you all

all of us gambateh on our love!

continue to love the one whom we loved.

i love you!

BAD TIGER YEAR.

2010-02-24T01:34:00.000-08:00

i really felt sad when saw my friends and my family argueing with the one they loved.

dont know why mostly of my friends have arguement with their arguement.

now is the starting of tiger year, it should be the new and wonderful starting but not starting with arguement.

it was the bad starting of tiger year. it really bad.

tiger, can you give back the smile and laugh to my friends? please.

god, can you stop their arguement with the one whom they loved?

all MUST be FINE!

every love story will be the wonderful story in each people's life.

love is when two people fall in love with each other, take care and love them for their life.

sometimes, love cant be stay forever. but still got many people drop into it.

the definition of LOVE is just only one, that is the happiness of be with the one whom you love as long as possible.

when you love someone, you will hope to see his or her smile.

no matter how hard to make his or her smile, you still will do that for the one whom you loved.

true love consists of a true heart which used to love the one you loved with the truly heart.

just only the true heart can change a real happiness.

no matter how hard how sad of the process to gain that happiness, but when u own it, all tears and sadness will be replace by the real happiness.

buddies, cheer up and show your love to the one you loved! try to memorise back how was the sweet and memorable moment that both of you have it before.

please dont simply give up your love , eventhough your mind also cant have the give up. if your mind feeling to give up, it mean both of you aren't love each other with truly heart. so, give up minded must be fuck off from your love!

i has met someone that i crazy in love with him.

the days that couple with him 7 months and 14 days was the beautiful view in my life.

i admit that i am not so tough as you all can see. actually i am easy to cry eventhough just a touching movie or story, sad song or words also can make my tears drop down easily.

but, my boyfriend will hug me and hold my hand when i am crying.

still remember that, when that time i was crying in his car, he just hold my hand and tell me [baby, dont worry be happy, smile 1 for me]

after he said those to me, i showed my sweet smile to him because i knew that he love to see my sweet face. =)

no matter what happen, i am here for you.

i will always stand beside you when you need me.

i wont feel shame or shy when a girl say those to her boyfriend, because i think that when you love someone, you should show it out and prove it to the one you love.

i love you, my boyfriend.

all my buddies, dont give up your love easily.

because it was hard to find the one you love and he or she love you too.

i hope all will be fine.

DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY

woohoo.

2010-02-23T02:31:00.000-08:00

wuwu. has been 3 days didnt update my sweetie bloggie.

sorry o baby. because your mami fucking lazy to update.

21/2/2010.

it was a beautiful sunday.

because my baby ryan went to my house and bai nin.

he stay beside me from 1.25 p.m till 10.13 p.m.

mami and i keep sang in front of him whenever he online.

after singing, me and my ryan went to jusco and hang gai.

we bought le 1 cup, 4 breads, 1 small pillow.

that small pillow just for me. i wanted hug it when my baby was driving. =)

when we decided go back to my home from jusco, then raining heavy. -.-

but we still went back to my house because my mami has cooked for us as dinner.

i felt happiness when we are having dinner together, because i can feel my parents love this guy too. from somethings, i knew that they accepted this guy as my boyfriend

nothing to write o.. damned lazy. xD

We've been a while for a short time , however it's not a as long as people thought . But then , in those day being together with you , I feel the love from your heart . It doesn't matter however you are , cause I love to see the way how you are . You probably give me the happiness in this while , maybe you're not the best in this world but yet you're my only boyfriend who always trying to make me smile when I'm down . I love you baby .

I've been taking this relationship seriously , I doesn't want to play with this relationship . This relationship meant to be everything . I'll take a very good care of you in everytime , no matter what . And I love you like I always do . I want your hug to feel the warmness .

i really love you with my truly heart.

sweet melody

2010-02-20T02:38:00.000-08:00

lalala.

CNY present from my baby ryan! it was a melody sweet!

he bought it for me when he visited to Malacca. izit cute?

i heart it very much. thanks baby.

baby, you see la. you so sayang me. you went to malacca and saw the cute thing, you will buy it for me. your tough mouth always say that you didnt care me. but your action and caring are betrayed you and let me know how much you care me. xD

i can feel how deep your love to me. you know what i need. you are the one who most understand me.

you said that:

your eyes are used to see my sweet smile and face when you are missing me.

your ears are used to hear my sadness and happiness when i need you.

your nose are used to smell my nature sense so it can make you remember me everyday.

your mouth are used to care me and kiss my lips.

your body are used to give me warmness when i need it.

your hands are used to hold me when i feel not comfortable.

your legs are used to follow my every step so you wont lost me.

and you will use every part of your body to make sure that how useful are you to me and show how much am i important to you.

baby. you are sweet to me.

million of words are not enough for me to show and prove my love to you.

just wanna to let you know, i just need you to be with me! you are the everythings which can fulfill all my life. thank god let me found you! i love you

baby. cheer up k?

2010-02-18T09:02:00.000-08:00

baby, i really very sorry to you.

i messed your mood again.

can you forgive me? please.

i knew that i very chong dong when talking or doing somethings.

i knew that i very stubborn also.

dui bu qi.

i promised you i will try to change it and make it fine k?

can you stop to emo?

i very worried at you.

i havent sleep at this moment.

i am waiting for your reply.

CNY updates

2010-02-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

has been 2 days never touch my sweetie bloggie.
it was because i went back to my popo's house for 2 days for celebrate CNY
quite tired now because just reach my home,
lying on my comfortable bed and updates my blog now.

those picture was taked on the 2nd day of CNY.

ugly because insufficient of sleep.

went back to my popo's house for 2 days.

really bored at there.

no internet can surfing.

no tv programmes can watch.

just watch sohai malay movie. omg.

luckily got this 2 new members accompany me.

my cousin's puppy.
its named OSCAR. izit cute?

and this is my nephew.

her name ling ling. 3 yrs old only but she looks sweet and great. got potential to be model rite? =]

this 2 cute members accompany me passed 2 boring days when at my popo's house.

hohoho.. almost forget to mentioned somethings.

i received two sweet msg from my baby..

those sweet msg are secret..

baby. thank for the confidence that you gave me.

i will try to dont think about the sad things.

i knew you hope me to forget it. i promised you that i will listen to you, my baby.

i love you more than i can do, just like what you told me.

My Eye is to see your sweet smile and face when i'm miss you.My Ear is to hear your sadness or happiness when you need me.My Nose is to smell your nature sense so its can make me rmb everyday.My Mouth Is to care and kiss your lips.My Body is to give u my warmness whenever you need it.My Hand will hold you when you feeling not comfortable.And My leg is use to follow you every step so i wont lose you.I will use all my body part to make sure that im useful to you and show how much you are important to me. I Love You~

gong hei fatt choy!

2010-02-14T08:07:00.000-08:00

one of my photo on the 1st day of CNY.
i will upload other on the day following.

quite bored on today.

woke up early this morning.

then, went to my beloved auntie kiew's house.

having reunion breakfast with her family.

suddenly get my baby's calling at 11.00am++

quite excited when received his calling, because it was too early for his time to wake up.

he told me that he purposely to wake up and give me a sweet morning call to me. because it was our 1st VALENTINE DAY.

i felt happiness when heard what he told me. when he say those to me, his voice was gentle and smooth.. i drunk when heard his voice, it was too great.

then, i went to my godfather's house for visit and he same too.

but i didnt feel any extra happiness on this valentine day.BECAUSE I CANT CELEBRATE IT WITH THE ONE WHO I LOVE THE MOST! FUCK IT!

CNY are the normal day as usual for me. nothing special also.

but Valentine day is the day that we can celebrate it with the one who we love.

but i didnt got this chance. hope can celebrate ANY FESTIVAL with the one who i love the most, RYAN HOE!

baby, you are mine o. you cant run away from my hand jo. xD

so, you should celebrate every festival with me in the future..

wo ai ni

aku cinta padamu

i love you

ngo oi lei

saranghaeyo

te amo

i wanted to learn each language of the words[i love you] because i hope that i can say each language of [i love you] to you =]

hope someone dont comment on my sweet blog!

if you wanted leave a bad comment on my blog, please fuck off from here!

i am not welcome you to step into my blog and affected it!

happy cny and valentine day to you&me.

2010-02-13T05:16:00.000-08:00

My baby may said that my blog was dead without updated.

aiyoyo.. hot weather made me feeling not well la.. and made my brain stuck to write all what i wanted to write.

what was on my hand?

the couple ring which my baby bought to me yesterday..

i felt happiness when i got this couple ring.

he bought it at MV shopping mall.

Tomorrow is CNY and valentine day.

i hope to celebrate with him very much.. but i cant do it.

because it is the 1st day of CNY. we need to visit relatives each other. so, no chance to meet le..

baby baby, a wishes to you.

happy CNY, happy valentine day to you & me..

we got a sweet and memorable memory on yesterday, because it was my 1st time lou sang with my bf.. =]

and i hope all your wishes can come true in the new starting of year.

i am nothing to hope.

i just hope that:

1. Ryan Hoe can stay happiness and smile everyday although his new job fulled with working stress.

2. Ryan Hoe can stay healthy without sickness in his life.

3. HOPE WE STILL CAN MAINTAIN OUR SWEET LOVE ALTHOUGH FILLED WITH CHALLENGES BETWEEN YOU AND ME.

4. HOPE OUR LOVE CAN STAY THE LAST DAY OF LIFE.

7th mth aniversary?

2010-02-11T05:42:00.001-08:00

our 7th mth aniversary which on 10 of Feb 2010.

we didn't meet up each other.

because he need to work on the next day.

i don't want him to be tired.

so asked him no need to come my house.

did you remember that yesterday was our 7th mth aniversary?

a late happy 7th mth aniversary to you.

heart you. love you.

i'll be there for you

2010-02-09T03:06:00.000-08:00

i got something to say:

i love you cant describe by words.

i will always love you..

woo..

2010-02-07T23:02:00.002-08:00

i changed my blog skin..

it looks cute right?

i heart it very muchie.

thank to CK 俊杰 whom helped and taught me how to edit the HTML code of the new blog skin..

haihs.. still keep headache on those days..

don't know what the reason inside it..

hot weather gua?

everybody must take care.. don't get sick before CNY o..

baby dear..

gambateh when working.

i am waiting for you.

miss you.

sohai update to you.

2010-02-07T09:26:00.000-08:00

my baby said that he most love my this picture.

he said that this picture of mine was pretty and made him fall in love with me very much.

i am still pretty from your 1st sight still now..

baby, i know you care about my everything.

eventhough my silly blog, you still very care about it.. because you said that me no heart to update my blog already..

sorry narhx baby, i am not mean that not to update my blog..

i was busying recently, and i keep headache on those days..

i am busying to sleep and play.. xD

dui bu qi.. you got a lazy girlfriend. she very lazy to update her blog na..

no matter how, i love you baby

our 1st study night

2010-01-31T20:26:00.000-08:00

has been 2 days didn't update my blog luu.

so update it on now..

my baby came to my house yesterday.

he came for study with me together.

it was the 1st time we were studying together.

i don't know how to describe those happiness feeling.

actually, it was the 1st time which i study with my boyfriend together.

it can be more concentrate and easy to absorb the things into your brain..

1st time i saw his serious face when he was studying. i knew he care about his new job..

when the moment i look into his eyes, i can feel that how much am i love this guy.

after that, we went to eat bak kut teh with my family.

skip the process of dinner.. it was not important..

after dinner, we continued our studying..

stop, that was not studying, just a simple revision with him..

because he going to exam on tomorrow.

baby gambateh and just do your best things on tomorrow's exam.

and please don't give so much pressure to yourself.

just take it easy.

i am a GOOD girlfriend narhx, so i let him online a while and me sang when he was online-ing..

i keep sang old chinese song. and he keep smile when i was singing. baby, isn't feel that you are the luckiest guy because you have a sweet and romantic girlfriend who sang for you?? xD

when he was online-ing and chat with others girl, i got abit jealous of it..

but he told me that eventhough he was chatting with those girl but his heart just on me.

and he hope me put confidence on him and myself.

what you told were the confidence that you gave to me. i won't jealous of them anymore. because i am your only girlfriend so i must trust you.

about 11.30 pm, he went back to his home luu..

it was a sweet study night with my baby.

baby,

put your arms around me and stay forever. because i'll be here for you.

just you can revive me and raise me up.

your this kind of love make me feel good enough. i can't describe what's the glue that hold us stick together.

nobody can replace and take your place, only you can make me safe and feel this way.

there are easy words to say to love you forever, but i wanted to mean it should be more than ever.

so, i won't give you up.

I WANTED TO BE THE ONLY QUEEN OF YOUR HEART FOREVER.

moody.

2010-01-29T04:49:00.001-08:00

it was my new photo 1 day ago..

my fren said it look like japanese doll again-.-

omg, i guess i cant changed my style edi.

maybe i got a babyface..

cant be a sexy and mature girl..

sad!~

what happened on today?

this was my handicraft to my baby may..

she don't know how to do, and i can't taught her by her side, so i take this picture and post to my facebook, and show her how to do this maths question..

my ugly handwriting.. just a simply rough.. xD

baby, i miss you so much..

but.. its ok for me..

because i can meet you on tomorrow..

hopes.

2010-01-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

today was the first day which my baby joined the citibank for his new job.

miracles was happened which that was he woke up earlier than me in this morning..

when i saw his morning message to me, i felt sweet although just a BABY word.

a word of BABY enough to show how important am i in his heart. i just like a baby that he loves and appreciate me very much..

then, he went to office for training, and me was helping my mummy in her shop.

mami has sicked for three weeks. keep coughing and headache.. worried her but can;t do anythings for her. i just can help her when she need me..

this was the first time that we didn't stick with each other..

i don't know he got missing me or not, but me has missed him very much, miss his everythings.

and worried about how his working situation and so on..

unfortunately, his phone low battery so can't contact me..

sigh~~ its ok for me..

but when he finished his job training, he called me for a while..

i can saw he was care about his new job. because he keep telling me that he worried he can't do it well just now..

actually, this job is difficult to handle. it needs alot of knowledge to memorise the benefit of the product..

baby, what i wanted to tell you is:

don't give too much pressure for yourself.

just do your best on anythings. stay happy and relax when doing it. and the result will be the happy ending also..

nothing is impossible in this world.. you should trust yourself that you can done it then you sure can do it by your hand.

hope you can remember what i said to you just now.. happy and healthy is the most treasure and precious things in this world.. so, stay happy and healthy for me.

and hope my mami can get recover from her sick soon.

i love you.

❤work hard

2010-01-26T23:47:00.000-08:00

baby, i still remember that how you appreciate my blog..
sometimes, you will asked me why i didn't update my blog.
sometimes, you will angry of what i wrote in my blog.
sometimes, you will jealous of my 1st time added some characters into my blog..
all you response to my blog was because you care my everythings, include my blog, right??

why i will named my blog as ✖_мч swеет мемояч_✖ ?
why i will started to write blog since 10/7/2009?
all those just because of you..
since 10/7/2009, this was the first day when be with you..
i decided to memorise and write down all the things that happened between us in my blog.. and i hope what happened between us should be sweet memory.. so i named it as ✖_мч swеет мемояч_✖. plus, it was the sweetest memory for me since the day i found you.. so, all i did just for you..

tomorrow will be the first day you start your new job..
a new starting of job will be a stress's starting too..
i got nothing can do for you.. but i can stand beside you and support you when you need me..
i can't give you anythings, but i gave all my love and support to you..
you say you will work hard for our future.. did you remember what you has promised me before??
you can work hard, but not too hard.. i not wish to see you work too hard for our future.. i don't want to see you too tired or stress of your new job.. just use a simple and relax mood to face the new challenges in your new job k?? and remember that i am always be there for you no matter anytime. gambateh..
baby, stay happy and relax when working tomorrow..
i don't want to see you tired.. rest more and take care of yourself..

i love you~

stop asking those sohai question to me~!!!

2010-01-26T00:43:00.000-08:00

i woke up early in this morning..
i on facebook for a while before i going to help my mami..

got some sohai people asked me some sohai question in my facebook..
it has made me pissed off..

the 1st question is [你是处女吗？], it translates into english which mean are you still virgin??
first, the question of isn't i am a virgin, i won't give any good answer for it.. because it was a naive and freaking sohai question for me.
second, this question none of you all business, right? then, why must you wanted to ask me those childish question??
if i answer this question with 'yes, i still virgin', isn't you want to tell me that you want to fuck me??

the 2nd question is [you look sweet, do you got boyfriend? i wish to fuck you]
hello guy, i didn't got any sweet looking, but i got boyfriend.. U DIDN'T MENTION THAT MY RELATIONSHIP STATUS IN FACEBOOK WAS MARRIED TO RYAN HOE?? so, why you still asking some stupid question to me?? and if you wish to fuck me, sorry about that.. what you wish won't come true because god won't let those of bastard's wishes come true..

if you need some sex service, please ask from your girlfriend. those idiot question shouldn't ask to me. plus i am not the cock that can fulfill your need from sex.
guy who asked those sohai question to me, you all are IDIOT AND NAIVE!!
please don't trying to flirt with me.. i already told you all i got a good boyfriend, if you all continuing do or ask those sohai things to me, please don't blame what the fierce things that i will scold on you in the future..

just went back from sing k..
i guess nothing special will happened in the night.. so updates my blog at this time..
earlier good nitez to you all.. stay happy..
love all my babees, especially RYAN. =)

gambateh!! =)

2010-01-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

wow.. this is another lucky star for my baby dear.. it made by myself.. 100% handmade..
izit nice?? hope he will love it=)
babee, hope u have a good starting for your new job..

all those are my new photos:

all those are my new photos on Jan 2010..

Chinese New Year will be coming soon on Feb 2010 also..

How the situation and the celebration of this year CNY will be? i am quite sacrifice it because can celebrate the valantine day and CNY with my dear on the same day ..xD

nothing special happened on those day..

wishes all my frens can stay happy and gambateh no matter working or studying.

my baby must gambateh on your new job for our future..

mwahx mwahx.. love you, yes i do..

❤because of you

2010-01-23T09:01:00.000-08:00

start from today, i guess i will use the professional english to write my blog.
because got someone tease me that my english is broken english.
T.T~~
okok.. i decide to learn english from my baby.. i wanted you be my english teacher.. because you taught me [pissed off] this word before.. i guess you can be the good teacher for me, and i will be the naughtiest student.. =)
me bernice teach you all again. PISSED OFF mean angry or mad.. xD

my story on today is same as usual. nothing special.
happiness feeling fulfilled my everyday, because i got my guy stand beside me and support me..
I had your love, it was my everything..
I'm grateful for each day you gave me..
Maybe i don't know what are the love story of others, But i know your love is true and I was blessed because I was loved by you..
I'll everything I am because you loved me..
I love you too my baby.. as much as you love me.

If love you is wrong, i never want to be right =)

2010-01-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

just now saw dou my baby sum geh blog.
If love you is wrong, i never want to be right =)
dis is what she write.. it was really sweet and suitable for each people who love their lovers..
yeap. i agree that..
when u truly fall in love with someone, you won't care it was right or wrong decision to love. and you just will be continue to love.
if you will care what others say of your decision to love, i felt shame on it, because you are not truly love your lover.

i won't care others say.
and i won't trust what others say oso.
i just will be continue to love you, my baby..
your love already fulfilled what i need.
i'll stand beside you when you need me.

laogong, wo ai ni ya~
=)

sorry to my sweetheart~~

2010-01-16T00:22:00.000-08:00

sorry coco.
i can't bring you back to my house because of some sohai reason.
i'll miss you all the memory with you on that day..
and felt sorry to miss yap also.
i mess your time for bring me to your house to see puppies on that day oso.
i really wanna to get it but some sohai people wun let me get it.

fine!! i will respect your decision!!
i will obey what you wanted me to do oso.
but remember that i will revenge
because you had spoil my dream and let it broken.
my dream to get coco has broken.
and my plan with my guy are broken oso.
you had made it mess~~~

bye!

when can i get you?

2010-01-15T01:39:00.001-08:00

i fall in love with it long time ago. but i din got $$ to get it by myself.

my guy know me love it very much so he try to get it for me.

today morning, i went to tmn desa to see the puppies..

when i reached the seller's house, it was fulled of the barking of the puppies.

it got many baby poodle inside the house.. i saw 1 brown colour baby poodle.. it was damned and fucking cute.. chubby and fat and short leg.. heart it. but it was sold.. when the seller said it was sold, i felt disappointed. and just left 3 white babee poodle..

this 1 is the one of three white baby poodle that i like too.. if got choice, i sure will choose that brown 1.. maybe i no chance to own it..

but i like this white baby poodle oso. it cute too rite?? so i decide to bring my guy to here and buy it for me..

yeah yeah, my guy promise that he will buy it for me.. but my mami won't let me to get it.. she said that i can't take care of myself also, if i really wanted to feed it, then ask me take the puppy to my guy's house and feed it.. wtf~~~

then, i asked her what are the reason that i can't feed this puppy, she gave me a fucking nonsense reason. i really pissed off and cried.. and she was stubborn..then, i called to my daddy who love me much much. when daddy answered my phone, he asked me who make me cry. i told my daddy straightly. he said he will help me to get the babee poodle.. daddy argh daddy, u just need to help me to tell ur wiife that let me feed it then ok dy. xD

haihs.. actually i tot that i cn get it dy, but my mami won't let.. it make me feeling sad and unhappy.. when can i get it? i also dunno~~~ god help me~~~

i heart babee poodle

2010-01-14T08:28:00.000-08:00

hehes. i heart babee poodle. heart it <3

because it looks lovely and adorable.

my guy know me heart it.. trying to get it for me.

he very hardworking on survey of babee poodle

i m touching of what he did.

baby, hope cn get it from you.

then we can own our family..~~

i heart you too..mwah.. love you

i miss you.

2010-01-11T07:03:00.000-08:00

beside miss him, i don't know what is the feeling of mine now.
i has been 2 days never saw him. but why i can so miss someone. first time i will so miss someone.
I always thought I will be the most happiest girl in this world ever since the day I met him,
I don't need to be jealous at other couples because I knew that we could be the most lovely couple if we could handle it perfectly. No doubt, there isn't any couple won't argue.
When days go by, I only realize that I fell in love with you more than yesterday. I can even leave everything behind just for you;
I can even hold my temper not to be too mad at you sometimes;
I can even be so tolerate with you which this is not what I used to be before I'm with you;
I can even sacrifice all the things I was craving for just to get a better things for you.
I don't love you because of your money, I love you because I do love you.one thing for sure, I will never regret for being together with you for such a long journey, baby you know that I won't; I might think, how would my life will be if I ever lose you one day. I dare not think that far, cause I know I will never let you go but if you insisted what can I do. You are my forever beloved babee dear. Baby I do love you~

6 mths and 1 day~

2010-01-11T05:39:00.000-08:00

yesterday he came to my house.
this was the photo he captured with my bobo.
they are my baby, 1 is baby boy and 1 is baby bobo.
he said wanna buy 1 dog and feed it. okok. u buy then i feed..
i want toy poodle.. baby.. if u buy it, it will be our child. then we will have our family. xD. sweet ba?

i got nothing good. just know how to care and love you
these 6 mths, we got our memorable memory , something that are different with others.
i guess my baby will understand what am i talking about.
we love to tease each other.
maybe other 1 will tot that we are argueing but actually we are not. this is our communication way.xD

i love your sound when you calling me baby. it was cute for me.
i love your way that you treat me, when i am tired, you will lend me your shoulder and said[baby sleep o, you tired]
when i try to say [i duwan sleep 1st, i want accompany you] then you sure fierce to me and said[duwan make me angry] then, i sure will go to sleep. i listen to you.
wakaka. your angry your fierce make me felt sweet lo, this is the way you love me, because you care bout me.
i remember that you got said it b4, you said that you love to see my smile, because my smile is your happy, me happy then you will happy.

baby, today u said that you has became a part of my life, and i fight back and said[nonono, you are not a part of my life, when i find a guy whom better than you, i will leave him and follow him]
sorry for say that, i m not mean to say that. i just wanna tease you
you are right! you are a part of my life. i cant stay anyday without you.
so, dun leave me alone and love me and take care of my life.

thank for love me these 6 mths and 1 day, you must keep it and love me till the day we didn't love each other.
be with you is my most precious thing in this world because your love have been fulfilled my world my life.

baby baby, i need a real man. and that real man is you.
♥♥wo ai ni♥♥
♥♥wo hui gei ni zui da de xing fu♥♥
♥♥i want you to rest, i duwan you to be tired♥♥

sweet ~ 08/01/2010

2010-01-08T20:43:00.000-08:00

let my photos show you all.
nice? =)

hehes. yesterday morning having dimsum with my baby and his family.
yesterday was our half year aniversary, plus his mami birthday~
happy birthday auntie. i have nothing to give her for her birthday o.. but i has sent a mms to her for her birthday.. it was a cute pooh.=)
then we went to genting about 4 pm.. happy happy..
on the way to genting, my baby hold my hand hand tightly. i love the feeling that he hold my hand tightly..
when we reached genting, we went to BE A STAR sing k ne..
he keep did some funny voice.. it make me keep laugh dou~~ xD

after sing k, then we went for a DAZZLE MAGIC SHOW..it was amazing. worth to watch..

after those. we oso have take some photos.

show you all. it quite ugly because we captured at the night.

about 11.00 pm, we went bek home..
his mami waited us at the skyway station..because me and my baby take cabel car.. it quite romantic when take cabel car with him because of the cool air and then his mami fetched me back my home.

a day in genting was passed.

our half year aniversary was passed too.

but i know our love won't passed.. it will be continued as long as we love each other.

i love your caring when you take care and protect of me.

i love your humor when you trying to make me happy.

i love your fierce when you care about me..

i love your everythings.

no matter what happen i will be there for you and loving you too.

hope you will stay beside me and loving me till the end of my life too.

half year aniversary present for you~~

2010-01-07T03:40:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is not our half year aniversary. 10th Jan is the real date of our aniversary..but we celebrate it earlier.. so it on tomorrow.. then today is the eve of aniversary.. i decide to give my baby a sweet surprise..

i got heard people said that the fold stars or hearts can bring happiness and lucky to someone..
baby. did you know that why i will fold those stars for you?
maybe you will thought that i am so silly to make those for you.. or maybe you don't know the meaning of those stars..
each of those stars is made by me.. i made those 1 by 1..
i don't care how pain of my finger.. i just hope to give you those. =)
i hope those stars can bring you the happiness and lucky for you~
you must happy when see those. xD
i also dunno how many stars and heart that i fold edi..
argh~~~ not enough paper let me fold my stars..
sorry baby.. but i promised you that i will fold the stars till the bottle is fill up.

yoyoyo.. :P

complete =)

each quantity of those stars and heart have its own characteristic~~
i translate it by myself lo.. broken english.. dun tease me wa..
01 you are my only one
02 we love each other
03 i love you
04 our promises
05 no regret
06 successfully
07 happiness
08 non-replaceable love
09 strong and lasting love
10 [sap quen sap mei]=> perfect you
11 [yat sam yat yi]
12 my beloved
13 [em luen]
17 stay with you
18 you are my another side
20 eternity love
21 [ngo dik zhui oi]
22 [shiong shiong dui dui]
24 missing you anytime anywhere
33 love you three of my lifetime[qin sei, gam sei, loi sei]
36 my heart belongs to you
66 [si si shun lei]
77 destiny let us love
88 apologise
99 [chiong shiong si shou]
100 [bak nin hou hap]
101 [lei si ngo de wei yat]
108 marry to me
144 love you [sang sang shei shei]
365 miss you everyday
999 [tin chiong dei gou]
1000 make a wish
1001 our love stay till[wing yuen]
1314 love you[yat sang yat sei]

thx god let me found you..
i appreciate your everythings. i kept all the things you did to me in my heart..
my love towards you is non-replaceable and non-stop..
i give my heart my love my soul to you since 10/7/2009..
these 6 mths, your love has made me changed many.
1st time i so serious and crazy in love with someone..
1st time i cooked for someone and take it far apart from my house.
1st time i keep worried someone.
1st time i so care bout someone.
did you know why you can own all those of my love?
because you loved me.. your love and caring are the special love i never own before..
the happiness that you brought to me in these 6th mth is uncountable..and memorable.
i can feel how true of your love.. thx my baby..
happy half year aniversary to you.. although we can't celebrate it together, but our heart are stick together..
u happy then i will happy too..
i am be there for you.
baby i love you is because you are you whom are the only one take away my heart～～

my ugly face.. T.T

2010-01-07T00:35:00.000-08:00

my side face~~~

hurt fuck off from my eyes. xD

i just wanna show my rabbit teeth. xD

many people said that me look like kids. i am big big gal!!

still remember that my baby asked me why i didn't update my blog..
baby, just 2 days never update it.. but u remember it..
I AM TOUCHING OF YOUR CARING..
ok la.. give you all see my new photo lo..

7-11 SLURPEE MINIATURE~~
MY BABY GAVE IT TO ME~~ IT WAS CUTE BUT ME WAS PALE AND UGLY BECAUSE OF MY MESSY HAIR..THX Q BABY

just a simply update on today..
because i m quite busy on today. xD
hohohoho. 10th on Jan is the half yr aniversary of me n my guy..
i love it.. blablabla..
baby, i love u..

promised me~~

2010-01-02T01:20:00.000-08:00

dunno why i will so care about your everythings.
i admit that i love you very much. much till can't prove my love thru words and actions.
i also dunno why i can so crazy in love with you.
baby, maybe you are not the most handsome in this world.
but you are the one who most handsome for me.

you and my family are the people i most care and love in this world leh.
touched mou? xD
whole noon i lost contact with you. i very very worry you.
i almost cry when lost contact with you.
did you know i called to your mami and ask why i can't call in your fon?
did you know that i called my buddy to fetch me to your home? because i wanted to see what happened on you.
i know i very silly leh. but it because i too worry you and care you.

just now. you called back me when you just wake up and your fon no battery so i can't call in to you.
when i heard your sound, my heart seems like put down a huge stone.
because i know that you are safe. hehes.
i happy dou dropped tears also just now. -.-
sei ye you!! made me keep worry you this noon.
you must promised me that you can't made me worry you anymore.
so you must sek sek me and love me the most as reward.

many ppls said that [one love not care the ending of the love story, it is care on the process and the memory of that love's story] but this not suit for me.
i wanted stay with you forever, i care both memory and the ending of our love story o. sorry baby o. i know i m greedy to own your love forever..xD

baby baby. you should know that i care and love you more than myself.
so duwan sacrifice my love towards you dy luu.
you are my everythings.

is u let me know what is love.

2010-01-01T08:27:00.001-08:00

baby.
shall you hold my hand forever?
i need your love to survive.
i love you.

happy new year

2009-12-31T10:08:00.000-08:00

i bought this clothe long time ago.
but i never wear it.
yesterday i wear it and went to klcc.
when my collegues saw me wear it, they said i m nt cute but i m sexy..-.-
izit funny??

hehes.
happy new year lo..
just now have a memorable countdown with my baby.
it was not vry special.
but it was precious memory for me.
because it was the 1st countdown new year with my baby.
i love it. because my baby has bought many many leng clothe for me
i will wear it and show to you all in my future blog update xD

happy new year wa evione.
hope you all have a new starting in the year 2010
my wishes in year 2010 is
I HOPE TO SEE RYAN HOE STAY HAPPY EVERYDAY IN HIS LIFE.
AND I WANNA BE WITH RYAN HOE TILL THE END OF MY LIFE.
I LOVE YOU RYAN HOE.

nobody will know how much i love my man d.
just he can feel my love. ryte my dear?
no matter how i felt happiness today,
i still remember what you told me at noon.
i appreciate.
i love you.

insomia again~~

2009-12-29T12:09:00.000-08:00

since a guy will drop tears for you mean that he really love you.
i felt very happiness when my guy drops tears for me.
tat not mean i m crazy when saw him dropped tears.
it mean that i felt very happiness of his only love for me.

i can felt you love me vry much and i love you vry much too..
me and him won't leave each other.
no 1 perfect couples in this world d.
eventhough how both of you try to make your relationship become perfect but it still got a small hole inside it because every couples sure face arguement. so those arguement will make all relationship become not perfect.
everyone got their different love story and me oso same.
i has my own love story, it can't be replaceable.

babee, your baby [me] love you very much.
really sorry of my hot-tempered.
and apologise to you of my bad attitude oso..
I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I didn't do. But I continue learning and trying to change. I never meant to do those things to you and i just want you to know I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be a reason to start over new and the reason is You

to my baby..
our love almost half year le.
but i always make u sad, unhappy, worry me, angry me and somemore..
really feel sorry of those.. i really not mean to do those.
i got sumthings need your agreement at here.
me bernice LAU YUET HUA wanna be with you forever. if you agree stay with me forever too, please sign in this agreement..i will waiting for your answer to tell me isn't you willing to stay with me forever.i just wanna tell you that i really really love you. yes i do..

baby. i m yours.

2009-12-29T08:49:00.000-08:00

baby, you are the one who can make me feel happiness.
baby, you are the one who can make me cry.
nobody can make me cry.
nobody can take away my heart and tears.
just you can do it..
did you know why i will cry because of you?
because i loved you i care you since 10/7/09
no matter how i trust that you are mine and i am yours.
i love all your good and bad and this is the energy of love.
so.. let all those pass.
because our future is waiting for us.
and our love road still got a far journey need us to face it.
baby i love you

without make up d me.

2009-12-26T03:26:00.000-08:00

walao eh.
y my face can be so yong shui without any make up.
dunno y today i dare to capture my face without any make up.
isn't my skin looks very bad without any foundation?
isn't my eyes look small small without false eyelashes?
wuwuwuwu. i know i m so ugly without make up.

you all know why i dare to post those photo mou?
because my baby may told me that an original without any edit geh photo is most NICE.
and she said if somebody can make its photo so pretty and nice, it sure got big differences between the real face and photo.
my baby may dislike me edit my photo d.
so she dislike people who edit its photo d.
xD

my man, you hope to see my face when i tied up all my hair rite?
now i tied all my hair dy loo.
isn't you get shock when saw this two photo?
this is my original face o.
i know it so ugly
but anyway, i hope you can accept me this ugly geh gf lo.xD
hehes. ugly bernice love ryan.^^

i loving it.=)

2009-12-25T02:09:00.000-08:00

baby, did you know that this xmas present from you has made me and mami fall in love with it?
hehes.
c c c.

she is my pretty mami.
she take photo with my baby son.
grandmum and her grandson.xD

bernice mami and my baby son.
baby son is cute and mami jau pretty.
match. xD

no matter what happen.
i'll be there for you when u need me by your side.
i love you.
i believe that our love are true and forever.

a sweet xmas eve~

2009-12-24T09:11:00.000-08:00

i thought that i will have a perfect xmas eve with my dear and my houjimui d.
but at the last, just left me and my dear celebrate it.
because my houjimui them have their own plan ba?
so, they postponed le their date with me.
i got abit angry when they din go for countdown.
but when i saw my dear, all my mad had disappear.

we have our xmas supper at station 1.
he ate chicken chop and i ate fish fillet.
after our supper, we sat at there and waiting for the xmas coming.
then after countdown, we went back to my home.

he bought a winnie the pooh babe for me as my xmas present.
it very chubby.
let the picha show you all:

although he tired of his work, but he still come my house and fetch me to countdown our 1st xmas eve.
and my baby wrapped this xmas present for me.
i appreciate wat he did for me.

thx for your love baby,
thank god let me found you in my life.
you has been fulfilled my life and make it colourful.
i felt happiness because my life full of your love.
and i can feel your truly love towards me.
baby, shall we celebrate every year geh xmas day together and shall we face our everyday together till the last day of life?
i love you more than i can say.
merry xmas to you!!

hehes. merry xmas eve.

2009-12-24T01:45:00.000-08:00

this is my new photo wa.
hehes.
just now went to my shopo's house o.
hehes.
we take jo many pichas too.
if very ugly pls dun get shock ne.
let the picha show you all~~

hehes.
today is xmas eve wa.
dunno my baby dear will give me wat surprise ne.
i quite sacrifice ne.
mwahx mwahx.
merry xmas tommorow o.
i love baby.

tong yuen festival part 2.

2009-12-22T04:13:00.000-08:00

lonely~ i am so lonely~ i have nobody to accompany me at this tong yuen festival night.
i am bored and lonely now.
my man went for buffet.
his mami and him got called me that wanna bring me go for the buffet.
but i can't go for it.
haihs. because of my relatives need to come to my house and celebrate it with my family.
this fucking reason made me can't go for the buffet with my baby.

ya. those sohai relatives came my house just now..
then got what differences between with me and without me at home?
the result still the same what. just sit together and having dinner with those relatives jek ma.
then. after having dinner, they chat them d. then me just sat in front of my laptop and online.
damned boring at this festival.
no meaningful for me.
i never feel happy at this night although i can eat tong yuen and i can make many many colourful and different favourite tong yuen as i like.
because without him~~~

baby baby. i miss you much.
i hope can have you at this night but..
btw, i love you

happy tong yuen festival part 1.

2009-12-21T20:41:00.000-08:00

a happy tong yuen festival to you all .
especially to my may baby and sohai sai mui WILLxxx.. hehe.
my english's level was lame and poor.
hope you all dun laugh me when view my blog.
those tong yuen are made from bernice.
no faker.xD
just only 1 in this world.

wishes you all have a happy tong yuen festival.
wishes you all appreciate all the time with your lover, family and friend.
stay happy ya~~

at the last, i wanna say sumthgs to my baby.
baby baby, this is the 1st tong yuen festival when i be with you.
we can't celebrate it together on this year because we need to celebrate it with our family, but my heart just on you and i know that your heart just on me oso.
hope you have a happy tong yuen dinner with your family.=)
those tong yuen gt a name.
it named as вэrnicε❤Rчan
baby, promise me that you will accompany to pass every year geh tong yuen festival ok buh? ^^

i miss you
i need you
i heart you
i love you

i'll by your side.

2009-12-18T10:32:00.001-08:00

babee babee slept dy.
but your naughty baby me hvnt sleep ya.
suddenly got feeling wanna to shout all my happiness and sweet feeling which i got from you just now.
although it just a message on our sweet msn but i still felt that i m glad to have you this boyfriend.

19/12/2009 your msn to me~~
『my baby lovely dear ^^
baby o baby ~
miss you so much oh ~
sek sek ni~
babyyyyyy ..
please forgive me for what i did last time oooo
i dont mean to hurt u oo babyy...
i only will sek sek you~
my heart is just only you~
MULLY
mully o mully ..
dono y i suddenly miss you so much oh mully..
i wan hug hug you n sek sek you oooo T___T
can ma?』

you're not alone.
you won't lonely anymore in your life. because i won't let you have the lonely feeling when be with me.
your life will became colourful with me.
i won't leave you aside.
i'll try my best to guide you right when you do wrong
i'll be there to hold you tight to me when you are feeling cold.
when you lost yourself and you are alone, i'll find you back and my love will get you home boy~
if you want to cry, i'll be there to dry your tears and make you fine.
if you use your heart to look into me, you will know that how much i love you and those love can't describe through the words.
i'll by your side no matter what happened.
because my love for you are eternity and truly.
bokuwa [вэrnicε ] daisuki [Rчan] yisiogai mo daisuki~

daddy and mami.

2009-12-18T06:36:00.000-08:00

my daddy n mami argued jx now o.
but i guess they fine bek now le.
=)
because my daddy very cute leh.
he use [isn't baby doggie eat le dinner?] this topic say to my mami.
then my mami answer him with a cold response.

finally they fine bek then ok luu.
me saw dou they fine bek le me oso happy happy now.~~

i love my parent n my man the most.
i love all my buddies too.
i just wanna see u all happiness then enough for me.
all those are my wishes.
u all happy me happy too =)
because i love you all..
mwahx.

the days of teeth pain.

2009-12-17T00:27:00.000-08:00

wuwuwu..

all of u c my eyes. damned bengkak.

and my panda eyes never better than before.

now is became worse than before.

because i never get a 9s slp at my every nite of the reason [teeth pain]

jx now take geh new photo.

i know it looks vry ugly n pale.

haihs.

i dunno how to make my panda eyes become better.

n god pls let my painness of teeth fast fast fuck off frm my world.

i jx need a nice slp.

hehes.

4gt tell u all.

i enjoy my sweet sweet love.

because we more appreciate and love each other than before.

he more care me.

i love those things which he did to me.

i love you baby.

this three is represent all my love towards you dy.

and i will prove my love to you by action and not by words.

insomia TT

2009-12-14T07:05:00.000-08:00

haihs.
dunno y insomia a whole night.
last nite nvr sleep.
my teeth vry pain.
my stomach vry pain too.
haihs.

nt feeling to write so many .

i love you baby.
i need you now.

playground? gayground?

2009-12-13T09:07:00.000-08:00

this is my new picha on today morning.
ugly rite??
maybe lack of sleeping time ba?
T.T
i woke up on 9.30 today, then went to my baby's home sleep again leh.
sleep until 1.30 pm baru bangun.
geng ba?
i m piggy bernice.
xD
then we watched a new hk drama[ba but dak baba] 巴不得爸爸·
this drama quite funny leh. me n my baby laugh dou almost die ne.

then we went to a cafe which nearby his house for our dinner.
the cafe named playground.
omg. when we walked into this cafe. all d guy at dis cafe is guy ne.
almost all is gay ne. wtf!!
then the waiter gave us menu to order food.
the price of the food is fucking expensive. and the food just a little bit.
the food quite tasty geh but vry less la. i n my baby nt vry full jek.
then we went bek to home. i just kidding with my baby and i asked him
[baby, tat nt playground cafe la, is gayground cafe]
my baby crazy with me together. he agree wat silly things tat i toking about.
about 11.30 he fetched me to my home.

baby baby.
this post is help you revenge d hor.
mayb u will tot this is a sillly n funny post.
but i m truly 1 2 make u happy. because i saw dou ur samtong face when you paid this bill.
this dinner really fucking expensive and nt valuable. because the food just a little bit.
but nvm wa baby. this will be our 1st time and last time to step into this cafe because we won't be so stupid to have our dinner at this cafe.
bye bye and sorry lo playground.

today i m vry happy. i felt sweet n happiness because of him.
he cooked for me although just a fried egg but it was precious for me.
and he did le some touching things for me oso.
thank baby. you are my evithings.
i will loving you forever no matter wat happen in the future day. hope you will love me and care me more than i love you.
because i m a girl who need your love the most =)
i trust that we can face those together because i can see our true love will fight off all d challenges in our love road.
i love you <3

our 5th mth aniversary~

2009-12-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

yesterday was our 5th mth aniversary.
5 mth ago, our love story started on 10/7/200 at mv
it is destiny let me and him memorise our love moment.
because ytd we went to mv too.

watched le storm warriors 2.
haihs. it quite bored.
but the movie wun be so bored because has he sit beside me.
he hold my hand when i feel cold.
is his caring and warmness let me feel tat his love will stay beside me anytime.
i love those.

baby.
although sumtimes you gt abit fierce to me lo, bt i knw tat is ur care towards me.
thx god let me found u.
thx for everythings you did for me.
i appreciate those very much. much than i can tell.
i'll prove my love to you also. i won't let you angry and sad anymore.
i cnt stop loving you~
because

I AM ADDICTED AND CRAZY IN LOVE WITH YOU

my lollipop~~

2009-12-09T03:42:00.000-08:00

hehes.

izit 9s???

me and my lollipop.

this lollipop is my baby bought for me d.

baby`

i felt happiness with you in my life.

you're mine.

please dun try 2 leave me alone hor.

because i decided marry with you

i love you forever.

wo ai ni bao bei.

2009-12-08T08:25:00.000-08:00

babee.
still rmb that wat i said to you just now?
i suddenly told u that i can feel where my happiness come from.
because of you and my family and my fren care bout me.
i reli appreciate it.

those day. our relationship closer than before.
miracles has happened.
our rainbow are shining now.
i hope this rainbow can owis be our side.
mwahx mwahx baby.
i love you and you love me.
our love are everlasting.

wakaka.
4gt tell my baby a thg.
that was.
baby u see right side of my blog.
there got a doll will show how many days.
the days was shown how many days we had been passed thru.
wo men zai yi qi de ri zi.
the days showing won't stop because our love won't lost.

wo ai ni

u're mine

2009-12-07T09:01:00.000-08:00

1 minute,1 second. i won't let u go, this is called love .
You're my everything, i can see the JOY and HAPPINESS that you bring to my life.
I don't care what they say, i'm gonna be with you .
and I know you will never walk away from me no matter what .
I'm crazy in love with you, and i miss you .
my forever love just for you.

hehes.

2009-12-06T08:24:00.001-08:00

my baby cum bek dy.
he sek sek bek me dy.
mwahx mwahx.
happy dou me wanna say what oso dunno
btw. thx q baby.

i love u.
i'll find u tml.
wait me
^^

hehes. happy.^^

2009-12-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

wakaka.
today is a happy day.
baby do you know why?
hehes.
because mami bought le 1 dress for me.
and my frens bought le 1 contact lens for me.
she bought it when she visited at korea last week.
that contact lens no enlargement geh.
but its stripes very leng o. it very sexy oso.
JAZZY SUMMER BROWN BLINCON FROM KOREA.

I LOVE IT.
I LOVE BABY TOO =)

haihs``````

2009-12-04T07:24:00.001-08:00

this photo is his msn display picture at now.

i still remember that he was using this as his msn display picture when we knew each other.

hoho. look like girl rite??

in those days, i had mentioned him.

every night, when he finished work, i will keep refresh his profile no matter facebook, friendster and msn.

i will look at wat updates in his profile.

izit vry silly?

i dunno, bt it was enuff for me.

i oso waiting for him.

his sohai sound.xD

actually i m sick before this.

but i keep sat in front of my laptop and look at his things.

he gt wrote 1 day without you in his msn when our 1st day caXX.

i felt happy at this. because i feel that he care me.

he care bout my appearance, n he care bout 1 day without me.

n i oso promised him that i will stop crying.

hehes.

i had did this.

geng?

but y.. haihs..

no matter how, i love him.

no people cn take away my everythings. because i m belongs to him only.

i can give all d thgs tat he need.

pls forgive me k?

i waiting for you. i miss u

baby.

u stil gt me. u are not alone. u are not bored.

i'll be there for you.

if you need anyone accompany you, i can be that 1 hu u need.

but but. ur fs.

no matter how. i m strong. i m happy. =)

and i m too stubborn to love you~~

raining raining cold cold. xD

2009-12-04T01:59:00.000-08:00

rainy day. cold cold.

hehes.

so today i wear long sleeves shirt.

baby, ur mully no more sick le.

she was recovered ne.

geng? ^^~

rainy day makes me more miss you.

did you miss me?

1 and half day more, i cn meet you le.

happy and sacrifice.

i miss you

i need you

i care you

thx for your love and care those day although gt abit cold.

but i still can feel the love and caring that you bring to me.

laogong.

wo ai ni.

wo zhi dao ni hui hui jia de.

laopo deng ni hui jia.

emo? sickness? xD

2009-12-03T01:31:00.001-08:00

those are my emo photo.

no emo feeling rite?

1st time take those emo photo.

paiseh ya.xD

i m sickness.

bt i m nt emo.

i just act emo.

and feeling boring at home.

so take some emo picha luu.xD

hehes.

sickness make me cnt hang out shopping ne.

but tat 's gd oso. cn save my money and wun let me become bankrupt status.^^

thx sickness. touch wood -.-

i 1 get recover faster.

because i 1 meet him.

meet my lougong. EMO RYAN.

baby baby.

hw bout my emo picha?

pretty buh? =)

i love you ne.

i miss you much much oso. T.T

3rd day

2009-12-02T22:21:00.000-08:00

baby.
3rd day.
i m sick.
my life at home same with org cacat.
i feel faint when out going.
so stay at home watch movie and online.
i miss u so much.
did you miss me?

hot weather.
pls drink more water if you can.
listen to me.
=)

mwahx mwahx.
boring at home.

i love u.

baby. u are everythings i like.

2009-12-02T08:03:00.001-08:00

baby.
my sickness abit recover dy.
i can blogging my sweet sweet feeling le.
and i can memorise my baby face dy.
because when i m blurr of my sickness just now. my baby's face started blurr on my mind also. i scared i will cnt recognize his face.
but now. hehes. his handsum face fulfilled my mind and all my heart.

i love stay beside my baby's side.
because i can feel your warmness.
because i can feel your appearance in my life.
because i can feel what your feeling and your mood no matter happy or sad. i also wanna to know that.

i love my baby's smell and taste.
an unique smell and taste which just belong to you and me.
i wanna own those for my whole life.
i hope those taste and smell can stay around me for my whole life and wun leave beside me.

i love to see my baby's chubby face when you are trying to make me happy.
you always use your chubby and sweet smile to make me happy.
did you know that your smile had been melting my heart?
did you know that my greedy mind wanted to own all your things?
when all the time you smiling, i just will use my eyes to look and memorise your every smile because i scared i will lost it in the future.

i love your face when keep looking at me.
i don't know why you will keep looking at me sometimes.
when i asked you why you keep looking at me, you sure will say because of my ugliness.
but i won't care about it.
because i felt sweet and happiness of your care.

i love your hair no matter before geh long hair or nowaday geh short hair.
all your hairstyle are suitable for you in my heart.
your past long hair made your chubby face look like girl,
you went to cut your long hair because of me.
i m touched of it.

i love your fair and pretty face.
a fair and smooth face without any pimples.
it make me wanna kiss it all the time when beside you.
i really love it.

baby did you remember that you got told me before that your eyes 1 big and 1 small and it look not nice? i still remember that. xD
but when i look into your eyes i never felt that are not nice.
every people geh eyes not actually equal and nice.
and 1 big 1 small geh eyes just belong to you, my baby.
your 1 big 1 small eyes are handsome.
it was adorable and lovely for me.

i love baby geh jealous face.
i have chat with many guy friends.
i know you will jealous although you never tell me that.
but not me chat with them d. is thet come to find me geh wor.
forgive luu k, i won't fall in love with others d.
i just belong to you.^^

i love your angry face too.
you know why? let me tell you. =)
when you are angry.
you said that you need calm down, after you angry you will find me back.
but me very stubborn, and i never let you calm down.
so everytime make you more angry. sometimes you will angry dou chase me out.
but i never scared it, you know why too?
because i won't scared anythings, but i just scared to lost you.

at the last, wanna tell you that.
i love your everythings.
your hug, your kiss, your angry, your accompany, your pretty.
and so on.
all of yours just belong to me.

sorry for my immature and stubborn.
i love you =)

hehes.

2009-12-02T07:17:00.000-08:00

today i m sick
half day stay at home n rest.
wtf.
stil faint.

jx nw about 8.00 i went to my baby's home n left sumthgs for him.
haihs
i m missing him.
2 days no listen his sound.

although i m sick.
bt i kip view his recording in my phone.
it was funny n sweet.
because it jx belong to me.
kaka.

baby.
i miss u.
i stop crying on ytd dy.
i has listen to u.
so, ur promise that wil talk to me soon will come true faster?
^^~

my sickness will recover too.
bt throat reli pain.
T.T

a sohai update on today.
actually, i oso dunno wat m i writing nw.
cux vry blurr.
my mind was empty nw.
it was controlled by medicine.
g9 my buddies

i love u my baby

1 day without you

2009-12-01T06:54:00.000-08:00

hw bout your day on today?

hw bout your teeth appointment wa?

u gt ask doctor y ur nga yuk owis gt hurt frm d crown mou?

gt ask d dentist gave u some medicine mou?

gt hving ur meal regularly mou?

gt drink more water mou?

gt rest more mou?

wakaka.

the last 3 question i can help you answer o baby.

the answer is no!

u will hving ur meal regularly? impossible.

u will drink more water? impossible oso. i guess u drink coke o 100 plus more than water. -.-

u gt rest more? no. the whole day on today u sit in front of the pc. hw cum u gt rest more?

haihs. take care yourself k?

i m sick dy. i no ability to take care you on those day.

my teeth vry pain oso. my thumb gt hurt frm knife jx nw.

i hv a bad day on today.

baby.

i m missing u.

the more you love me, the more i love u.

i love u more than i can say.

mwahx

my precious in my life.

2009-11-30T18:14:00.001-08:00

hehes. all those are my sweet memory with my guy.
i nvr tot i will love him so much. i tot tat he love me more than me love him.
bt at the last, his love made me changed alot.
is me love him too much. much than i can say.
no matter how. i wun change my decision to love him although i m sad now.
i trust wat he say. after 1 week. he will come bek to me.
baby hear this.
Baby come back to me I’ll be everything you need
Baby come back to me Boy you’re one in a million
Everything I ever did Heaven knows I’m sorry but I was too young to see
You were always there for me And my curiosity
Got the better half of me Baby take it easy on me Anything from A to Z
Tell me what you want to be I open my heart to be
You are more priority
Can’t you see you punished me More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me
Baby come back to me Baby come back to me

i waiting for you anytime anywhere if u need me.
i love you too much.

why today i will post my daddy mami n his picha together at here wa.

hahas

because i m sot dy luu.

cry dou sot jo-.-

sure nt la. so easy to cry dou cot meh?

i just kip cry bt hvnt sot la.

^^~

all of their are my precious in my life,

1 is my beloved 2 are my family.

my onli 1 daddy n mami.

my onli 1 lover.

but last nite i made they felt vry samtong.

i kip cry cry cry. they felt vry worried.

silly daddy mami n baby.

duwan worry me k? i m fine. c i stil cn smile n lauff. although is fake smile bt i jx act for u 3 ppl sahaja leh. appreciate lo.^^

i love bloggie.

because cn write all the thgs as i like.

this is my space.

this is my place too.

i love it.

blalala.

i love my baby n my family n my buddies.

baby ur position is in front of my family.

^^~

happy? sweet?

hehes. hahas. hohos.

2009-11-30T08:02:00.000-08:00

pretty?
bt useless.

hahas.
i m sad
xD.

sry i love you too much.

hehes. happy day in midvalley.

2009-11-28T08:51:00.000-08:00

today me n my guy got some misunderstanding when hang out at mv. T.T~
we watched ninja assassin.
rain so yeng zai bt vry cruel.
because dis movie was fulfilled of blood and fighting.
cruel. i crying when watching this movie -.- izit funny?
dunno why i will crying when watching this movie.
when watching this movie. he still angry at me.
bt me nvr gif up to explain to him.
i duwan wanna lost him.
he said he already told his best fren that today will become our last day.
i felt vry sad because of this.
i cried in front of the washroom. this is the 1st time i crying in front of many people ne.
T.T
btw, at the last he forgif me.
n he hold my hand n hug me.
felt happy n sweet again.
because i knew that he was loving me n i m loving him too.
our love wun break so easily.
hehes
then we oso captured some picha.
let the picha tell u wat happen lo.
^^

hehes. i kissing him. ugly?

this one i love it.xD

wakaka. rabbit bernice.

this one oso nice. xD

9s 9s 9s. =)

dunno want to write wat le.

hehes.

jx now he cooked egg for me.

i n him cook cook cook at his house.

made dou his house geh kitchen messy dou~~

aiyoyo. mou ngan tei.

i love u baby.

we no more arguement le.

kick offall the bad thgs between us.

i love u i love u.

watshiwa bernice aishiteru ryan.

sry sry sry

2009-11-26T08:47:00.000-08:00

TT.
me made hIm angry again lo.
this is his angry face which i take jx nw.
i did wrong things again.
haihs.
y i will so sohai? y i will so careless? y i cn owis make him angry ha? izit i m expert at make ppl angry n sad?

wuwuwu.
baby sry.
i promise u i nt dare to do d same thgs to make u angry again.
dui bu qi.
i m willing to do evithgs for u.
i will try my best change all my bad attitude away.
i rmb wat happened between us on jx nw.

1.00 p.m on 27/11/2009, i promise u that i wun do those again. n i won't let those happened anymore.
wo ai ni.
yuan liang wo.
mwahx

u are mine.^^

2009-11-25T08:44:00.001-08:00

those are my hair style when i was working.

izit vry childish? hehes. some people said my face more look like japanese when tied my hair like dis.-.-

LET THE PICTURES SHOW:-

i having the breakfast set with my babee dear which in klcc's dessert bar.^^

let u all c his panda eyes. he act emo n act cool again.

but stil handsome rite?

xD.

dunno want to write wat dy luu.

jx knw tat i felt vry happy when working with him those days.

although happened some serious things between us, but we still love each others vry much.

i cn feel that.^^

tired.

g9. i love u.

TT

2009-11-21T08:14:00.000-08:00

wuwuwu. vry tired.
jx nw saw dou my ji mui x.jie geh blogger.
saw dou she dying her hair le.
her hair bcum brown brown nw. vry 9s leh.
actually i had buy d colour for my hair oso.
bt i nid to wait my hair bcum longer den i baru pergi colour it.
TT
when my hair cn grow longer?
i 1 b real japanese gal.
because nw i nt real japanese. haha. although gt many ppl said my face like japanese. xD

hehes.
a sohai update on today. because quite tired of working.
bt although hw tired, i gt my man accompany beside me. because i work v him eviday. i can see him eviday. n he will act cute to make me happy. i work with him together on those days, i felt happiness when saw him n all d tiredness cn disappear half.xD
i love my laogong.
he is my only 1.

happy 2012~

2009-11-19T08:12:00.000-08:00

hohoho.

today i woke up early n went to find my babee dear.

wear this new dress frm TREATS BOUTIQUE. dis dress named tree's roots dress.because its design seems like d roots of trees.

about 10 o clock. i reached his house lo.

actually i still scared d. cux my brain kip remind me [ wat is d revenge tat he said b4? izit he stil angry at me? ] bt at d last. i brave to face all those.

when i reached his home. he hug me. n kip say i love u to me. vry sweet ne.

he use another way to show his love.then, i asked wat happened recently. but he seems like nt very wanna to tell me. i also never asked it anymore. because just wanna see his smile. then, he asked me close my eyes.

this is what he gave me. wow. my lollipop.

this is which he promise to buy 4 me b4. happy n sweet when rcif it. thx dear.

hehes. i n lollipop. hu more loveable?

then, we take photo with dis lovely lollipop.

izit 9s? xD

then. we went to watch 2012 at pv hor.

when watching d movie, he quite angry o.

because 3 malay kip kick our seat.

he wanna beat them hor. den i kip cool down him. xD

den he guai guai at d last cux gt my comfort ma.^^

dunno y hor. my babee kip called me loupo on today.

he make me felt vry sweet today. i asked him y his mouth so sweet today. then he said me hepi den he hepi oso.^^

laogong ni zhen de hui lai le.

laopo hao kai xin o.

u stil love me d most.

u stil sek me d most.

ur love nvr change til nw.

i love u too baby.=)

saya akan berani berjuang demi cintaku.

2009-11-16T18:06:00.000-08:00

sorry all my frens.

i knw i had make u all kip worry me recently.

because i m sick n my love's prob make me kip crying eviday.

1 of my houjimui. she is my baby x.jie.

she scold me. she say she duwan c me pretend myself to show a fake smile.

she say she wanna see my real smile n laughter.

en. i promise her i wun act my smile anymore.

i promise her i'll try become happy n gif all of u a real smile.

actually love a ppl is should be happy.

because when u love a ppl u hope urself cn bring him happiness n joyful.

ya. i realise tat at this moment.

so, wat should i do nw?

i'll cheer up n gambateh to warm my love.

i'll use my real smile n laughter to love him n bring him d most happiness n joyful.

woo woo yeah yeah.

i love him more than i cn say.

i m willing to die for him.

it vry silly rite? i oso felt tat. bt he is d 1st 1 that i m willing do anythings for my love.=)

I LOVE MY BABEE RYAN.

I LOVE ALL MY BABY JIMUI.

I LOVE ALL MY BRO.

I LOVE ALL MY BUDDIES.

i m brave.

2009-11-16T00:00:00.001-08:00

all those are my new pic on today.

i m vry sad.

i also dunno y i cn be so sad.

mayb of ur msg on today.

shi ni jue ding wo de shang xin.

cn let me knw wat misun of u to me?

wat betray by love?

i nvr betrayed u. frm d start til nw oso nvr betray u.

i so care bout u.

how come i will hurt u n betray u?

i reli dunno y u cn say this to me.

u oso tel me tat u betray by sumone.

maybe they will betray u. bt nt me!!!!

i nvr betrayed u at all..

although i m vry sad. nobody will knw hw sadness m i. tears was fufil my days bt i'll brave to face all those.

because i m ur gf. n u r my love.

as ur gf should care u n love u n stand beside u no matter wat happened.

yes. i m doing it nw.

although u treat me cold, bt i oso will stand beside u.

i'll give u all d thgs which i cn giv to u.

mayb sumone wil say me silly.

bt i clear bout wat i m doing nw.

i'll wait u bek. n i gt confidence v u n our love.

because i cn see ur love.

our love cn be everlasting.

i'll gambateh^^

i'll be strong to secure my love.

you're my everything.

i love u

wat is mean by emo?!!

2009-11-15T06:45:00.000-08:00

i want to knw wat is emo life.`
because he owis say he was emo life emo emo emo.
when i knw him. i knw he was emo.
n i feel tat he was a guy hu like to thk too much.
i tot tat i cn brought away his emo!! bt actually no.
he stil say himself was emo life!!

today u said ur fon no battery. so i wait...............
ok. i nvr disturb u when u r working. bt i jx send some caring msg to u.
den i say when u reach hum cn reply my msg n pls dun let me worry.
bt u reached hum le oso dun let me knw. u oso nvr reply my msg.

i m loser!!
rite?
be with me u stil emo life rite?
no matter u change to wat. i stil love u d!!
if u duwan me love u. jx tel me den cn le.
i love u!!

deng lei deng dou ngo sam tong.

2009-11-14T17:40:00.000-08:00

[deng lei deng dou ngo sam tong]
frm last nite til nw i cn feel all d feeling of dis sad song geh lyrics.
he angry.i wait.
when he online.i knw he will game to relax himself d.so i wait him finish game n i asked him to call me after his gaming.
bt he didn't do it.
i vry silly. i tot tat he will call me after his gaming. so i kip wait wait wait.
wait dou 5 a.m den went to slp. slp le 4 hrs. 9.01 a.m wake up le.

wtf!!!! y my life become like tat?
he has became a part of my life.
he has completed all my feeling n all my daily routine.
he is d one hu most understand my everythings d. he knw i will sad n cry when i m waiting for him. bt y he nvr cum to find me? eventhough a msg also no reply me.
did he knw i m nt jx sad while wait for him? actually i more worry him.
i really crazy le. while i waiting for him, i still guess izit he gt hving his meal mou a? he reached home le ma? he gt felt tired mou wa? izit he gt win his game? because i knw when he was gaming, he cn happy.
i just want see his smile. his laughter.
it was enuff for me.
i dunno hw to act myself to smile while waiting him. i really worry him miss him.
bt i oso dunno wat should i do to make him reply me.
pls. god. help me.
i don't want cry anymore. i just want his reply.
sry sry sry sry.
pls dun angry me le.........
i love u

rainy day. rainy mood. rainy heart.

2009-11-14T03:08:00.000-08:00

sry

don't know why i really love those photos vry much.

maybe it look vry 9s, 1 is his slpy face. 1 is he act cool face. really handsum xD

i love blogging. i love to write all d thgs at my bloggie. because gt 1 ppl he will view my blog when evitime he online.

raining just now. dunno izit my body lam sap jo. nw gt abit fever. headache.

bt my sky oso raining n cloudy mood.

i really confused n sad about wat i did that cn make him so mad at me.

my mind kip thinking wat expression on ur face when u asked me get away frm u. it was angry face i guess.

i already said sry to u. y u mx treat me so fierce n cruel?

y y y? god tel me. pls.

izit evitime u mx angry me evethough a minor things?

i really felt vry weird. y evitime i wil make u sad o mad at me?

although u r nt d best between ppl hu chase me, bt u r d best thgs of my life for me.

others wun know hw much u love me. bt i m d one hu cn feel it at all.

did u knw tat ur frens told me many thgs about u?

they said u r romantic guy. cux tat GIORDANO. xD

bt for me. ur romantic ur caring ur love nt just simple like dis.

all of urs no matter good or bad are my precious. i knw u r truly love me.

u love me more than u cn say. i vry appreciate wat u did.

others will hurt u cheat u betray u. bt me wun do those to hurt ur feeling.

maybe sumtimes my careless n my stubborn make me owis did fault n make u owis worry n angry me. bt u r care bout me so u just will angry me jek ma.

wat all i say to u is true. i wun break our promises geh wor. so u won't worry and scared me leave u alone.

MS BERNICE LAU will promise u. she will stand beside u every moment when she is alive. so ur life no more lonely n sadness again because ur life gt me. i'll bring u most of my love to fulfil ur life. n use my smile n laughter to make u happy. use all my caring to care u for ur life.

4gif me k? i duwan see u angry me anymore. u gt many promises to me and u nvr make those come true wor. pls la mou lao jo la.

i wanna be with u 4eva`` wantc ur cute tiger teeth.

pls. smile 1 for me? o pls u say again [SEI SOHAI] for me. pls~

i love u molly.

fucking bad luck

2009-11-11T03:41:00.000-08:00

dunno what the reason inside it.
my eyes red and pain again.
luckily i working morning shift on today.
so i cn bek home to rest.
maybe my eyes allergic again.
wtf!! ytd skin allergic.
today eyes allergic.
fine. wat oso bad.
then, jx nw when on d way i take ktm go bek my home.
i tak sengaja pijak seorang babi punya kaki.
den dia marah saya dengan kuat kuat.
i already said sry 2 him when i pijak his legs. bt y he stil cn so fierce treat me!!
fine!! i cn tahan those.
i m missing my baby dear badly.
so i let tat babi scold.
but mayb i m annoying my baby gaming o wat.
he scold me again. he say me is FUCKING ANNOYING again.
fine. 2day reli is a bad day.
vry bad.
most bad d is my baby scold me that again.
eyes pain i cn tahan. cux i knw u'll beside me.
ppl scold me i cn tahan oso. cux i knw u'll sek bek me.
bt u say me xxxx. i reli sad.
btw. i love u is my choice.
so i won't care anymore.
stop my blog at here.

4th mth aniversary

2009-11-10T00:01:00.000-08:00

вавз вэrnicε ♥ Rчan

wakaka. so fast hor.

2day is our 4th mth dy.

10/7/2009- 10/11/2009.

in these 4 mth. v hv our arguement and sweet memory oso.

bt all those v nvr kip it in heart.

although v gt d feeling want to gif up dis love.

bt v nvr gif upp at d end.

because of V LOVE EACH OTHER..

so v mx kip dis love til 4eva.

cnt 4gt dis promises^^

вавз вэrnicε ♥ Rчan

вавз вэrnicε ♥ Rчan

I LOVE U.

i won't let u sad anymore.^^

haihs

2009-11-08T09:16:00.000-08:00

wei shen me cuo de zong shi wo?
y me owis is d one hu did wrong?
y me owis is d one hu make u feel annoying sad worry angry n trouble?
UR FUCKING ANNOYING in msn's PM.
i gt saw it. i knw u're mean me.
b4 when i c those thgs. i sure will cry o sad.
bt dis time i nvr cry at all.
it nt mean tat my love towards u is lesser den b4. mtgs gonna change my love for u.
just it is mean tat i m bcum strong nw. n my tears wun dropped of those minor thgs again.
izit baby 1 hug me nw? xD.
i m ntg wor. jx abit moody nw. n i cnt aslp o.
i m thking bout izit me reli make u feel so trouble?
hehes. bt tml v wil meet n wear tat couple shirt for hang gai le o.
v mx happy geh ma. ryte?
i'll go to slp soon. g9 baby.
10th is our 4th mth aniversary luu.
happy.
mwahx.
BERNICE LOVE RYAN

my baby are the best lover.

2009-11-05T08:51:00.000-08:00

hehes. this shirt cute mou?
my babee dear buy for me d. he got 1 also. that was couple shirt. his 1 is blue color. mine d is white colour.^^
he gave me dis shirt when i went to his home on today morning.
when i c dis shirt, i felt vry surprise n happy. u knw y ?
it because me and him are having cold war those 3 days. but he still buy dis shirt for me.
when i ask y he so sayang me why he so love me. he din answer my ques o. maybe love n sayang 1 ppl no need reason o.
it is rite. i love u without any reason too. because you are the one who can bring me the feeling of LOVE.
i promise u i wun so immature again.
i'll rmb to report all my thgs 2 u evitime.
i wun let u worry me again.
mwahx

I love you.. babee dear..

gambateh for my happiness^^

2009-11-04T06:44:00.000-08:00

just came bek from injection.
my godfather inject some glucose into my body.
he said my body lack of protein and carbohydrate.
so i need to inject those glucose solution into my body so that i won't faint or vomit anymore.

today morning when i went up.
i got a feeling want to vomit. then i went to toilet.
yeah. i vomit all the things which stuck in my stroke there. tat moment i feel vry song neh. bt my throat feel dry dry d. then i nid to clean d disgusting thgs which i vomit out. i saw dou gt a bit blood inside it.
die luu dis time. y i vomit the blood cum out d?
izit i'll be die soon? then i went to ask my godfather alone.
i m not dare 2 let my parent know this. if they knw about this. they sure will scold me 99 lik geh.
then my godfather tell me that maybe my gastric gt hurt dy so i will vomit bloods out.
then he gave me some medics. after ate medics i feel better den before.
bt my heart? my mood still same.[down and sad]

haihs.
these two days. i lost his msg. sumtime when i msg him he seldom reply me oso.
i guess he still angry at me. he treat me cold cold d.
nvm la. i still will pretend smile and happy in front of him and my frens.
actuali my heart feel very pain very hurt.
at this noon. i did 2 thgs.
i decided bring those 2 him.
i did those for him. bt i didn't did those for myself.
i hope he can happy. i hope he can healthy. so i did.
izit vry curious 1 2 knw wat are those?
tat are secret. ^^

i keep telling myself. gambateh gambateh.
and i blif him. he is love me much much. he wun gif up our love easily d.
at today. i clear bout wat i did make him so angry.
baby. i'll tell u tml.

bye bye. g9.
all of u wishes me gd luck on tml ba.
i love you ryan.~~

It just for you~~

2009-11-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

This is my new pic on ytd morning. xjie tat shopo suddenly date me to MV sing k. she vry geng la. wake up earlier den my baby. her msg earlier den my baby too. actuali i wanted to go MV dy d plus she date me to sing k. den go luu..^^ dis picha leng mou?

whr is my half face? lose? T.T

MY DRUNK FACE{CAPTURED AT MY LAOPO HOUSE}eyes vry vry bengkak..cux~~~blalalala

Haiz. i dunno wat should i do now. last nite my fren tel me tat he has changed his personal msg in his msn.frm [EMO LOVE>EMO LIFE..disappointed.feeling to gif up] actuali. v gt argue n big misun when i sing k v xjie. he send le a vry long msg 2 me. i vry hurt n sad. den i drink beer. i 1 drunk. i duwan face dis msg. i duwan face wat d thgs he tel me. [10. GIVE ME A BREAK] wat is d break mean? a calm down break for each other o break up? i dunno a. i jx knw i vry hurt. my fon low battery dy. i asked xjie to tel him tat my fon low battery. den happened sumthgs too. i feel his care n his love frm d thgs happened last nite. although he was vry stress n angry n disappointed at me bt his love n his heart stil on me. i cn feel tat d. then i went to my laopo's hum. i reli vry sad. my tears kip dropped frm d moment i rcif d msg. when reached my laopo home. i cried again. omg. she saw dou me like tat. she vry worry bout me. kip ask me wat happened just now. den i tel her all d thgs. izit u reli feeling to gif up me?

i guess i drunk dy ytd d. cux whole of my body was red n hot hot d. abit fever too. den she warning me mx rest o slp a while if nt she chase me out frm her home. i reli duwan miss a thgs dy. my heart vry pain. i reli cnt slp. bt i sked i wil chase out frm her hum den i rest a while. mayb my eyes too tired of cried le half day. i fal aslp soon. suddenly gt ppl call me den i wake up dy. bt i saw dou my laopo n sum guy chat on fon. i felt vry weird. den i knw tat she was chatting v ryan. i dunno wat they chat bout. i jx knw she kip asked him izit reli 1 2 gif up dis love? i duwan hear wat they chat. i sked n hate 2 face d truth. i sked 2 hear d ans frm him is bad. so i laying on bed at others rum. i kip cough n vomit. den he heard dou my cough sound. he vry care bout it. he asked my fren izit gt gave me eat cough medic o panadol mou.n asked my fren remind me drink more water. i heard dou my fren ask u show those caring by urself. i kip wait 4 ur fon kip wait 4 ur sms. bt u nvr did it. y u duwan show ur caring in front of me? u vry love me n sek me d. bt y u dun show it? when i reached my home. i cry again. hahas. my longkang spoil dy. i asked u 2 c my bloggie. den u go to c. if ur heart nt care bout me. y u wil go to c it? den u changed ur pm again as [is nt simple as u think] wat is mean by dis? i dunno. i nt wish 2 knw. den for a while. u called me n asked me izit gt thgs hide behind u mou. nonono edy. god gif me a leopard's heart i oso not dare 2 lie u. u r my precious treasure. i wun treat u like tat 1 d. bt u gt a big misun v me dy. y u dun try 2 blif me? den u say u decided 2 gif up. n asked me to take care myself. den u off ur fon. omg!! y u so cruel to me? it hurt me vry vry much. much til i dunno hw 2 use words 2 describe it. den i kip called ur fon. u vry care bout me. u mm sek dak off ur fon. bt u force urself nt to ans my fon. i reli crazy dy. den my parent came out frm their rum n ask me y so sad. n y cry til dis level. my mami use towel 2 rub my tears away. n ask me wat happened. i asked mami if ur lover nt blif u u wil sad mou? mami din ans my ques. i thk she guess dou y i m so sad. mami n daddy ask me slp early n dun thk too much. sry baba n mami. ur daughter cnt do it. den he ans my fon suddenly. bt he nvr tok. jx me tok. nvm d. he willing to ans it is better den none. den i kip say d thgs. n try 2 explain to him all d thgs. den he say he is love me.he is vry care me.he say he hou lan dam sam me.bt all those make him feel stress n trouble. i knw if i din make u disappointed u wun tok those rite? n u told me tat ur stress n ur home prob. den he say he 1 slp dy cux tml nid 2 work. den i say i din saw any gif up msg frm u. n i say if i let him 2 slp he cnt gif up. he say ntg den slp dy.

Let the story continued. wat has happened on 2day. last nite i slp at 4.00 am bt i wake up at 7.40. geng leh? gt many ppl sms n ask me cheer up. bt it was hard 2 do. btw. thx 4 all of u geh concern. then i msg him at 9.32.bt he nvr reply me. its ok. i predict he wun reply me. kaka. nvm ba. bt i m nt strong i m a dai hambao. cry cry cry. i reli tak blh tahan dy. den i went 2 my laopo hum again.
when reach her hum.xjie call me n ask me wat happened. i say he decided 2 gif up me. cry again hor-.- my crying make my laopo worry again leh. she cnt slp anymore. she acc me d whole day. actuali my baby is care n jealous bout my sailou wa. he nt d guy u thk la baby. he is a funny frm fb hu call me gajek. my baby tot tat i go sing k v him n earn his rm 50 wa. actuali tat was a deal between me n tat funny sailou..he tease me dis gajek owis tok cc words den he bet if i cn hold a day without cc words den i gt rm 50 frm him. bt wat my baby thk dou~~ so far o..^^ bt i knw my baby is too care bout me so he thk far. bt i oso 1 tat 38 sai lou 2 explain d whole thgs 2 my baby. i duwan lost my baby cux sum misun between us.

let the picha show wat m i doing at her hum today. baby u gt 2 surprise. dis is one of them-->

i rmb tat i gt post a blog which related to PUZZLE n OUR LOVE STORY d.
i wrote tat when v started to knw each other. d picture of it is just like a piece of a complete puzzle. following d passing of time. my love 4 u is just like d pieces of puzzle.slow slow d complete le d puzzles of our love story.i dun care the puzzle will be ugly o beautiful.bt my love n caring for RYAN still to be continue.i wun regret tat i has been gave all my love 4 u.. U LOVE ME N I LOVE U IS CNT BREAK D. OUR LOVE CNT GIF UP EASILY D. i knew u love puppy. d puzzle on d upper part just like us. they r couple too o. dis cute cute puzzle did u like it? baby. i 1 to let u knw. i'll always love u. i dun care wat they say. i just in love v u. u promised me u'll care me for my whole life geh o. without ryan hw bernice live happy? bernice jx nid ryan's love n caring 2 stay in dis world. jx u cn bring d happiness for me.. i love u i love u i love u.

frens. sry 4 make u worry those days. sry sry. i'll be fine soon.

sadness~

2009-11-02T08:37:00.000-08:00

cn i control my tears?
cn it stop 2 drop?
pls.
i knw u r disappointed on me dy
wat decision u 1 2 do. i'll accept.
dun care bout my sadness.
dun care bout my tears.

pls rmb tat i m here for u.
bernice lau is here for ur evithgs.

if u reli 1 2 gif up our love.
if u reli din love me anymore.
if u wanted 2 leave me alone.
if u reli din feel any happiness when be with me.
u cn choose gif up it.

i wun cry.
i wun.
i cn promise u i wun cry a second.
bt i stil will continue cry on d next second.
sry bout it.
because i too love u. i too care bout all thgs which related 2 u.

dui bu qi.
shi wo bu hao.
shi wo you yi ci yi ci de rang ni shi wang.
ru guo ni yao xuan ze li kai wo. ru guo ni li kai le wo. ni hui kai xin. den u just do it.
i just hope u cn live in happy environment.
i duwan u EMO. i duwan c ur sad. i duwan c ur mad.
bt i kip make those cum out.
i vry useless.
b4 tat is we said i 1 stay dis love til 4eva.
bt whr is our promises? i thk it was lost of my stubborn n immature ba?
i'll try 2 change it. bt it seems like hard 2 change cux ur disappointed on me?
no matter how. i'll try b a best gf.

sry.
because i made u cry le many times.
n i made u felt sad n disappointed on me dy.
however. i'll wait 4 ur reply.
i'll wait for ur fon too.

g9 my dear.
i love u o^^

hehes. gambateh!!

2009-11-01T08:15:00.000-08:00

hehes.
jx nw my sai lou called me n chat many sampat thgs leh.
den i kip sing 2 him.
he say me cn b singer wa.
xD
den v gt sum promise hor.
sai lou. I SURE CN EARN UR RM 50 GEH. U SURE LOSE!! xD

den gt a handsum guy kip called me oso.
cux he lost his love dy. he was vry sad. den i try 2 comfort him.
bt seems like useless. cux he gt abit stubborn.T^T

v kip argue recently hor.
geh sad o.
bt he stil so sek n love me ne.happy n sweet sweet~~

babaee wa.
bad weather recently ya.
rmb drink more water n take care o.
ur careless gf me nt vry knw hw 2 take care ppl.
because u has said b4[ just because of my careless den u just cn take care me for my life] ryte?
so i jx want u take care of my life luu. den me no nid take care u luu.xD

muahaha.
my dear was helping me do the report nw.
babee gayou wa. gambateh.
i'll support u.

thx 4 ur love in my life.
just u cn bring all those joyfull n happiness 4 me.
ms bernice will just always love u.
i love u, my forever .

i miss him~~

2009-10-31T07:08:00.001-07:00

babee molly.
whr r u?
did u knw tat mully miss u so?

vry suck about d digi prob geh la.
molly n mully chatting on fon owis corrupting by sum ppl.
mayb is d digi prob o wat. our line owis stolen by others.
for an example.
jx nw he called me bt i heard dou some other voice.
den i kip sigh n haihs there.
den mayb he tot tat me vry beh song when chat v him.
den he off d fon dy.
haihs~~

me vry stupid in love.
dunno hw 2 show all my feeling out.
sry baby
4gif me.
pls dun mad le.
when u mad o sad i m d 1 hu more sad sen u.

i love u baby.

MOLLY AND MULLY

2009-10-28T21:54:00.000-07:00

hehes
me n my baby d relationship fine bek already
our love sweet sweet again le.

our love wun affected by other thgs so easily d.
it wun break so easily too
because my babee so love me n i so love him too=)

mwahx mwahx
we got a new nickname for each other again.
MOLLY IS HIM N MULLY IS ME.
HAHA.
it was a language of which country.[ i 4gt wat country le xD]
MOLLY mean guy MULLY mean gal
hahas.
is me too 38.
ask him changed our nickname.
den he kip say MOLLY N MULLY
BT DUNNO Y HE CN CALL HIS EXGF AS DEAR O DAR DAR.
N HE CALL ME BABY.
abit jealous nia xD

at the last.
mully want to tell molly
ntg gonna change my love for u
happy leh?
^^
wat name oso same 4 me.
most important d is ur love.
hoho

I LOVE YOU

haihs.. die luu.. THIS TIME~

2009-10-23T04:28:00.001-07:00

jx sit in front of my laptop d whole day

no heart n no mood 2 start revise it

many people say me look like japanese gal-.-

latest bernice

latest me~~~

today i passed my day with a cloudy mood.
don't know why my mood will followed the cloudy weather n changed it become cloudy mood too =(

tomorrow is my final exam dy.

i still haven't start 2 revise my exam.

its total 30++ chapter.

i just left half day. wat should i do 2 fin n revise it?

i really no mood n no heart to start it...

haihs. just feel vry tired n lazy at all..

god!! whr r u?

cn u help me?? cn u bless me 2 pass my exam??

pls~~~ i nt wish 2 fail my exam.
bt it looks like impossibles. except miracles happen on me.

if nt.. i guess i will fail on exam.

luckily hv him. he is my BABEE DEAR.

actuali my mood is cloudy d. bt vry weird luu..

when his incoming call my mod wil become sunny bek.

it was really make me felt happy n sweet when chat on phone v him.

i love dis amazing feeling.

although his mouth kip tease me dis n tat. bt i knw tat my position n image in his heart nt like those =)

babee. i promised u i'll start to revise my study nw.

u must support n stand beside me no matter what happen.k?

MY BABEE DEAR``

MY BELOVED RYAN.

U ARE THE 1ST BOYFRIEND WHO I LOVE THE MOST.

U MUST APPRECIATE ALL MY LOVE AND WAT I DID FOR YOU IF NT MY HEART WILL BROKEN~ T.T
I JUST LOVE YOU FOR MY LIFE^^~

BERNICE LAU!! GAMBATEH FOR UR EXAM N FOR UR LOVE!!

babee. our next destination is 5 mths^^

2009-10-22T10:36:00.000-07:00

ytd b4 u went to dentist checking.
u suddenly scold me[if u stil like tat. i reli reli suffer u knw?!]
my baby vry fierce recently.
he owis scold me o.
mayb is my record nt 9s dy. he reli tak blh tahan dy.
bt baby. even though hw bad of my record. pls promise me du1 leave me alone k?
my life cnt without u u knw?
u has been became a part of mine?
i won't make myself did fault again n lost u.
i du1!!!

babee.
our next destination set on 10/12/2009
dis is our 5 mths aniversary k?
cn i hold ur hand tight?
cn i hold dis love til d end of my life?
r u willing acc me 2 make those cum true??

i m gambateh 2 remove all my bad attitudes dy.
u mx wait 4 my changes o.

watashiwa aishiteru
yong yuan ai ni o laogong=)

hehes. he came bek le^^

2009-10-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

hehes``
my dear came bek dy
he treat me sweet sweet n caring bek le.

i vry happy n felt hang fook with him.
mwahx baby.
i love u.
u r d best 4 me.

T.T

2009-10-20T22:52:00.000-07:00

first time i update my blog at his hum.
recently i kip luen luen fatt his pei hei.
he gt say tat he vry gik sam on me.
i knw tat. i cn feel his cold.
ytd i going 2 slp at 3.35 a.m
it was d 1st time i slp at dis time.
i reli cnt slp u knw.
my brain kip thk bek d moment he say those to me.
i vry vry vry regret.
n i feel vry vry sry 2 him.

is me made his cold.
is me made him changed.
cn u tel me wat should i do 2 make him bek?
i 1 c my baby return bek d original of him.
i 1 c he love me n sek me same as b4.

i nothings wishes to do on dis world/
i just 1 him.
pls dun treat me cold le.
i vry suffer u knw.
pls pls pls dear.
i begged u bek.
begged b4 d ryan bek.
i reli reli ji cuo jo.
i won't stubborn anymore.
i just 1 u.
i m willing to do all thgs 4 u.
i m willing 2 change all my bad attitudes 4 u.

i love u

3 mths and 10 days

2009-10-19T22:50:00.000-07:00

babee.
today is our 3 mths n 10 days leh.
between dis 3 mths n 10 days.
u brought alot of LOVE memory for me.
miss you. love you. take care of you.
yes i do.
u're my evithgs.

time made me put my heart on u.
is time made our relationship become closer n stable den before.
opps sry. i type wrong dy.
is made me love u more than others.
at dis moment.
i m miss and loving u. did u feel tat?
although v cnt meet eviday.
bt my love 4 u still standing at here. SO HERE I AM. STANDING JUST FOR YOU.
pls blif me. i'll be strong 2 guard our love n wun let it affected by outside.
i'll use all my love and caring 2 fill ur heart

when v knw each other. did u knw wat is d picture of??
it just like a piece of puzzle.
following d passing of time. my love 4 u is just like d pieces of puzzle.
slow slow d complete le d puzzles of our love story.
i dun care the puzzle will be ugly o beautiful.
bt my love n caring for RYAN still to be continue.
i wun regret tat i has been gave all my love 4 u.

me BERNICE will gif my baby dear RYAN a love contract at here.
i'll be follow d instruction n promises on d following:-
1. when i saw dou leng zai, my eyes won't kip on him more than 10 second.
2. i won't do sumthgs which hurt ur feeling anymore.
3. i'll put u on d 1st place of my heart.
4. i'll be care n love u forever.
5. when anythgs happened on u, i hope i'll be d 1st 1 who stand beside n support u.
6. i'll be ur audience when u nid a pair of ears 2 hear wat u trying to say.
7. i'll be take care myself n won't let u worried me.[ bt worry me more gd la. cux me dai tau har nid u take k geh ma]
8. ngo wui yat jik mie ju lei. mie ju lei geh oi qing bao fuk. yat jik gam yong oi ju lei[because i 1 u b my forever lover]
9. my heart wak locked by u since d 1st day v meet, just u cn open my heart.
10. d foods u cooked o buy for me, i'll try my best to eat fin it til become ur feipo zai=)
11. NGO MM WUI JOI LUEN LUEN FATT XIU JIE PEI HEI JO.

lastly, i wanna tel u is i'll be love u dis forever.
contract period: forever
dis contract wun expired because i cnt stop loving u. u r my beloved.
IF I BROKEN D PROMISES ON DIS CONTRACT. ALL D PUNISHMENT WIL DO BY MY BABY DEAR RYAN.

sry babee.

2009-10-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

babee babee.
saying sry 4 u at here.
i knw although i has been say many sry words 2 u.
bt ur heart stil gt 1 thgs stuck inside there.

jx nw ur words gt abit cruel n hurting my heart deeply.
bt i knw tat nt ur true words.
is ur hei wa lei geh.
btw.
sry sry sry 2 my dear.
is me make u angry n say those.
is me make u feel disappointed on me.
sry sry baby.
i promised u.
i wun notty again
=)
mwahx.
i'll do it 4 u.
i'll gambateh 4 our love's future.
I LOVE U

``happy birthday to my dear``

2009-10-18T01:32:00.000-07:00

deng deng deng deng~~~

dis is wat i present 2 my dear as his buffday present leh.

BONIA lei geh

hope he will like it.

bt his mouth say it nt enuff n he hope me buy 1 more ZARA shirt 4 him.

wtf.!

dis cost rm 380++ dy. stil 1 ZARA shirt?

den i ask him find a rich women buy 4 him

xD.

all those rude toking is our communication way o.

our SPECIAL communication.

all of our frens oso say v r sweet n special couple.

ya meh? mayb gua =)

btw. happy buffday 2 my baby boy.

wish u hv a happy n memorable buffday on tml.

yeah yeah. sunway lagoon~~

all of us going to sunway lagoon tml^^~

happy.

at d last. I LOVE U^^

i knew i love you

2009-10-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

haihs.
my brain stuck at my assignment dy.
since i m trying 2 do my assignment.
bt it seems like hard 2 finish it.
dunno wat d reason inside it.
mayb is d ques too hard.
my bro n buddies oso dunno hw 2 do tat. sign~
bt i'll continue 2 fin it.
because i knew that u'll hope 2 c me fin it.
with ur love i'll gambateh to do it

babee dear.
did u knew wat m i thinking bout nw?
secret. xD
19th is ur buffday dy leh. almox reach dy leh.
dai gor zai jo luu.

eventhough ur mouth say u dislike wat d thgs tat i gif u.
bt i knw u vry like it n appreciate it d.
jx ur mouth din tel me.
bt frm ur action. it was telling me u so care wat i did 4 u

xiang gao su ni
wo yi jing ai ni ai dao zou huo ru muo le.
wo ai ni wo de laogong.

i miss u nw.

2009-10-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

dear
i miss u so much nw.
did u knw tat?

gt many thgs happened recently.
all those happening make me felt tat i reli cnt live without u.
i vry vry vry scare 2 lost a day without u

ur caring n ur love make me drunk dy.
mayb u knw hw dis much i love u bt u sure dunno hw tat much i love u
i cn love u more den myself.

babee babee
i truly love u.
u r d 1 hu i need 4 my life.
no others tat cn make me feel happiness le.
jx u cn bring d joyful n happiness 4 me.

i love u

babee i love u

2009-10-07T11:04:00.000-07:00

babee.
just now happened sumthings.
i scared it will affect our love.
but i thk it wun spoil our love so easily geh.

babee.
i cn felt ur caring and love just now.
although you treat me fierce and scold me.
but you still care bout me.

i 1 own those 4eva.
i won't do sumthing let u worried again.
i'll love and care you jek.
k?
=)
u cnt throw me away eventhough i owis bring trouble 2 u.
mwahx mwahx.
u must love me 4eva
:D

BERNICE LOVE RYAN~

yuan lai zhe jiu shi xing fu.

2009-10-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

i went to my dear geh house purposely to do assignment yesterday.
but i did nothing at the end.
because i just keep play with my dear.
=)

i use my laptop online.
he used his pc online.
we online separately in one room.
funny?
^^~

then we went to pasar malam when at the night.
his eyes keep starring at leng luii.
and keep tell me which leng which leng.
don't know why i'll always jealous about this.
cheh! me also not bad ma. me also got leng zaii kap ma.
huh!

after pasar malam then we went back to his house le.
i suddenly ask my dear that if i got pregnant le he will hw .
den he say he duwan d baby.
he hug me n said sry 2 me n ask me 2 find a better man.
dunno y i gt shock dou cry le although i know he was joking to me.
wuwuwu~
he saw my tears then fast fast use his panda palm 2 rub my tears.
=)
from this i can see that he care bout me.

babee babee
yuan lai zhe jiu jiao zuo xing fu.
yi qian de wo cong bu zhi dao ai yi ge ren ke yi na me xing fu de shi.
ai ni rang wo xing fu.
zai ni shen bian shi wo de kuai le.
wo men neng bu neng yong yuan zai yi qi bu fen kai?
wo da ying ni wo hui yi zhi liu zai ni shen bian.
wu lun shen me shi wo dui ni de ai shi yong yuan bu bian de.
wo ai ni.

just for you~

2009-10-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

babee.
Just for you~

I LOVE YOU
I NEED YOU
I HEART YOU

hoho^^~~ 2mths aniversary luu

2009-09-10T03:44:00.000-07:00

my guy..
i love you^^~
v couple jo 2 mths leh.. so fast.. n so hang fook in these 2 mths..^^

did u know that why ms LCB will love you so much??
sorry luu.. that are not because of your handsum..
that are because your love and caring and a special of your personality..
you are special for me in my heart..
when you mad at me i still will guai guai stay beside you and try my best to make you happy..
if others mad at me when i didn't do anythings wrong i will just let it be.. and i won't explain..
that are my first time so care and so love someone too=)
dear dear no need worry.. ms lau will always stand beside you even though you need her or not.. she will be the one who care you love you appreciate you the most..
I CARE AND LOVE YOU MORE THAN MYSELF..

this short post just wanna show my love towards my dear dear ^^
our stupid misunderstanding must be delete..dear knw?
and our love still sweet sweet.. we still are the sweet couple in everyone's eyes..
mwahx~~~~~
MY HEART IS SEALED FOR YOU ONLY..
NO ONE WILL TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU..
I LOVE YOU FOREVER~

i don't know that much but just know that i so love you~

2009-09-07T09:41:00.001-07:00

can all of you see that what of this picture?
it was a stupid picture from my dear..
he drew it for me but he wrote that i m a pig hu named bernice
wtf.. ryan.hoe you dare to say me is pig? if i am a pig then u'll be the male pig of mine.xD
although i got abit angry when receive this but my heart is sweet sweet de because my dear never did this before..it just belongs to me..thank dear!

i wrote this blog at 2.44a.m~ i can't sleep..don't know what the reason inside it..
just now he off my fon suddenly when i talking about sumthings he not like to hear..
i know you are not like to hear that but cn u pls dun simply off my fon?
it will hurt my feeling..did u know that?
i promised you that i won't cry simply and think too much anymore..
i know that and i remember that..although how i moody now..i won't cry..i will smile to face all those..
actually i don't know me is a what type of girlfriend in your mind..
caring? stubborn? childish?
i don't know.. you never told me this before..
but i hope i m a good gf for you..
i just know how to care and love you is not enough d right?
your perfect gf in your heart should be understanding you..
you said me not understanding you..yes..i agree that i didn't do that because of i don't know to understanding a people..can u forgive me??
i m the only daughter of my parent..
i live in a family which full of warmness and happiness..
maybe because of those stupid reasons then make me become stubborn and childish?
dear~ i really sorry about that..
i don't know how suffer are you when your working and i just will did sumthings make you feel angry.. but my heart are loving and caring you d.. you know that how much i love you..
i try my best become a caring and know how to understand you d gf ok ma?
are you willing to give me some times to become that?
i promise you that i'll try my best to understand you..
yes i do to change and take away all my bad attitudes for you..
dear can also promise me try to change abit your bad temper ma??
because i m an old age but childish minded d girl.. i'll scare and cry when you are fierce..
i won't run away from you.. Your love was tied me tight tight since 10/7/09..
i appreciate what my dear did for me..
how bad are you i also will continue loving you..
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU..
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE AND I CAN'T FIND ANOTHER ONE OF YOU IN THIS WORLD..
TEAMO~

^^~

2009-09-04T07:19:00.000-07:00

i don't know what i did and just feel that both of us got some misunderstanding..

these 3 days..

my tears dropped non-stop everyday..

i just know that i can't lost a day without you.

it was the first time i will so crazy in love with someone..

babee dear~

i am not strong as you see..

i am just an ordinary girl who need a shoulder when i sad..

yes.. i has found it.. you're my everythings did you know that?

i don't wanna lost you..

did you know that how much and how deep i love you?

somethings happened between us make both of us felt sour..

it just because of 2 word. LOVE, CARE

you won't lost me.. i hope that i won't lost you too=)

my love and caring that just for you will stay 4eva.. nobody will replace it.. and nobody will own it..

but i know that our love are strong and won't break easily..

other people said that 1 love can be stay as long as you love each other.

but i felt that are a lie..

my love for you cnt stay as long as you love me o.. hw?

it just cn stay til d last day of my life..

my babee.. i promised you i won't cry so easily anymore..

i promised you that i won't think too much anymore..

i will trust you 1oo% with all my heart..

i won't do sumthings which will spoil our sweet relationship

Please remember that BERNICE LAU JUST WILL CONTINUE LOVING RYAN WONG ..

MY HEART WILL STAY WITH YOU 4EVA..

^^~

I LOVE YOU

^(*(00)*)^