2009/11/04
gambateh for my happiness^^
just came bek from injection.
my godfather inject some glucose into my body.
he said my body lack of protein and carbohydrate.
so i need to inject those glucose solution into my body so that i won't faint or vomit anymore.
today morning when i went up.
i got a feeling want to vomit. then i went to toilet.
yeah. i vomit all the things which stuck in my stroke there. tat moment i feel vry song neh. bt my throat feel dry dry d. then i nid to clean d disgusting thgs which i vomit out. i saw dou gt a bit blood inside it.
die luu dis time. y i vomit the blood cum out d?
izit i'll be die soon? then i went to ask my godfather alone.
i m not dare 2 let my parent know this. if they knw about this. they sure will scold me 99 lik geh.
then my godfather tell me that maybe my gastric gt hurt dy so i will vomit bloods out.
then he gave me some medics. after ate medics i feel better den before.
bt my heart? my mood still same.[down and sad]
haihs.
these two days. i lost his msg. sumtime when i msg him he seldom reply me oso.
i guess he still angry at me. he treat me cold cold d.
nvm la. i still will pretend smile and happy in front of him and my frens.
actuali my heart feel very pain very hurt.
at this noon. i did 2 thgs.
i decided bring those 2 him.
i did those for him. bt i didn't did those for myself.
i hope he can happy. i hope he can healthy. so i did.
izit vry curious 1 2 knw wat are those?
tat are secret. ^^
i keep telling myself. gambateh gambateh.
and i blif him. he is love me much much. he wun gif up our love easily d.
at today. i clear bout wat i did make him so angry.
baby. i'll tell u tml.
bye bye. g9.
all of u wishes me gd luck on tml ba.
i love you ryan.~~
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